It's a cruel world....

Went to Kbox to celebrate Yin Chau's birthday and the singing session couldn't have came at a better time. Of course It's a pleasure to celebrate Chau's birthday with the gang but lately I haven't been at my best moods. It's been awhile since I've had the chance to sing my lungs out and 5 hours of singing was really a relieve to my stressed out feelings. Many thanks to everyone for shoving the mike to me eventhough I probably hurt your ears.. =p

Back to emo stuff... my appeals for my modules still hasn't been confirmed yet.. I bunked into Forensics lecture last Friday night and really enjoyed the lecture. For the first time in my whole NUS history, I felt like attending every single lecture of a module. I'm just praying that my appeal goes through.. sigh..

And you,

Don't mean to be cruel,

You never even knew about the heartache,

I've been going through.

Well I try and try to forget you girl,

But it's just so hard to do,

Every time you do that thing you do

Jessica & Onew - 1년 後(One Year Later)

A lot has been on my mind lately but everytime I try to type it out, nothing appears. I find it hard to put my feelings and thoughts into words nowadays.

My appeals are not looking good.. I've already been rejected by 2 different parties and now it all comes down to Engineering Faculty's undergrad admins decisions. It's kinda frustrating not knowing what modules I will be studying next week when it's already the end of week 1. Hope everything gets settled soon.

UFO has ended and I must say the freshies this year are amazingly crazy. I didn't join them much but it was easy to see how "on" these year's freshmen were compared to those of 2 years back. Kudos to this year's organizing committee and the seniors involve.

Last week's annual National Day steamboat/bbq gathering was fantastic. Good food coupled with great company just made it a perfect night. It's been quite some time since a MSL event had such a happy atmosphere.

I've been learning Korean by myself for quite a bit via a website lately. Kind of got the hang of the simple vowels and consonants so I'm actually able to read out quite a number of words but I don't know what they mean unless it's in my limited Korean vocab that was build while watching shows/listening to music =p

I've been a bit moody lately.. Simple comments can make my temper explode.. I'm not sure what's the reason for the mood swings but I'm sorry for it. Will try to control my temper as much as possible....

Through experience, I've learned to not put too much hope into anything because the more hope you have the more it hurts when it shatters....

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Aih.. I got outbidded for my Korean class and to make things worst I did not bid for anything else. So I'm stuck here now without any confirm modules yet. I'm really not happy with the bidding system now. =(

I sent an appeal for my modules. Let's just hope the fact that I'm a final sem student will get me my modules. In the mean time, I still have to hunt for emergency modules just in case my appeals fails.

I saw something on the way back from the mrt station to my house yesterday that made me feel 고독한. Sometimes I wonder what have I done wrong for the past few years to be exiled.

Really not in the mood to stay at home alone now... but I have no where to go.. no one to turn too... should have went back to Malaysia... I miss the weekly movie/futsal/tar kei sessions.. I miss the food.. I miss my friends... I miss my family.. Fucking hate this place

보고싶다고 불러봐도 넌 아무 대답없잖아 헛된 기대 걸어봐도 이젠 소용없잖아

Ahh, i guess once you stop blogging it'll be very hard to start doing it consistently again.

It's bidding period now.. frankly speaking, I think the bidding system in NUS is pure bullshit. I don't see the logic in allocating less general account points to engineering students compared to other faculties. It's already my 5th year and final sem in NUS but I still have trouble bidding for modules I want. Lame shit.

If people are asking for a reason to NOT come to NUS? The bidding system is already a good enough reason.