내 머리가 나빠서

내 머리가 나빠서 - SS501

We were on a bus on the way to somewhere. We were sitting side by side having a conversation. In the middle of our conversation you lifted my hand over your shoulders and put it onto your head as if asking me to pat you. I figured it was what you wanted so I continue talking with my hand slowly patting your head. Then you leaned forward without a warning and before I could react, I felt your soft lips touching mine. I didn't pull away because deep inside this was what I've always been wishing for.

For years I've been yearning to be the one beside you, to be the one holding you, to be the one kissing you, to be the one loving you. I've endured many heartaches after heartaches seeing you in relationships with other guys but yet my hurting heart chose not to let go. I've already given up hope of being your "one" and chose to be with you as a friend. "As long as she's happy" was all that's in my mind. Kissing you has never crossed my mind in a long time but it is now happening when I'm least expecting it.

I came to my senses after god knows how long and pulled away with a worried look. I really thought it was some kind of sick joke you decided to play on me and was expecting you to burst out in laughter but you never laughed. You did nothing but look into my eyes and then I realized you weren't joking. You then close your eyes and leaned forward again... I followed your actions and soon our lips touch again.. but this time everything disappeared the moment our lips connected.

I open my eyes only to see the blank white ceiling of my room. It was a sick joke after all...

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Ok don't think much, those few of you that are reading my blog will probably be thinking too much and start coming up with possible names... Just don't.. I just thought I needed to write this down somewhere and I guess this is what blogs are really for: writing down what's in your mind... So I don't want you guys to get any weird ideas. =)

P.S. Nice one Liverpool, now we're gonna get laughed at by every single BPL club supporters.