Grandfathers......

I was staying up late to watch MU vs Lille when my mom suddenly called me around 5am.... she announced to me that my grandfather(dad's side) had just past away due to heart failure. I rushed back to KL a few hours later via bus from larkin. Once in KL we immediately rushed back to my hometown Kampar, Perak.

Reached Kampar about 7 something... the chinese funeral ceremony started right after we drop our bags. A few sessions were to follow until the next nite when we burned all the stuff for "kong kong"(house, car, money etc.). What i was really surprise at was that my family didnt really show any signs of sadness. No tears were spilt.... Until the morning where we were to escort "kong kong" to his grave. Everybody cried... My father, the eldest son was obviously trying to hold back his tears.. but it didnt take long for him to succumb to his feelings.. everybody had tears flowing... except me..

Now, i'm not that heartless... I DO feel sad, but i just couldnt cry.. It was the same with the time where my other "kong kong" died. I too did not shed a tear back then...I really dunno why.. I love my 2 "kong kongs" very much, both have done a lot in raising me to who I am today.

Maybe one of the reason's why i didnt cry was, i really had this feeling that they left us to go to another place better... I was told by my father that "kong kong" died without suffering... and when I was looking at him in the coffin, it seems like he was just sleeping... so peacefully.. I guess, instead of feeling sad.. there was a hint of happiness in me.. I find myself thanking God for letting go in such a peaceful manner.

To both of my beloved grandfathers, you two will be dearly missed by me and the rest of the family.. may both of you rest in piece..