Overspending...

I was looking back at my bank statements for the past 2 and a half months and i realized i spent a staggering amount for food and transportation... past few weeks especially... gotta stop spending so much.... aih...

i'm so sorry but I love you da geojitmal~

Retarded Me

People think I'm having fun at home. People think I like spending my time watching dramas, playing games, reading mangas and watching videos of soshi. Let me tell you this, I'm no where close to happy doing all these day and night. You people don't understand what it's like to sit here everyday hoping to get a call from one of the many potential employers that you have sent an email to.

I've been doing this same shit for months and no, I'm not liking how I spent my life everyday. You may say I can just go and simply find a job first. Easier said than done? I've applied for lower level positions but they deemed me as overqualified because I have a degree. Degree job employers sees me as under-qualified because my results sucks and I have no work or internship experience. I'm caught in the damn middle where nobody wants to give me a chance. Not being a PR isn't really helping either.

Find a part-time job? Do you think I have never thought of it? Sure my results are bad but I'm not lacking of common sense. I CAN'T work part-time, I have no valid pass to allow me to do so. The same for any other full time odd jobs, employers will not want to apply a work permit for a person they know will leave once he gets a better job offer.

Sure I brought this upon myself. If I had studied harder or made more initiative to get an internship, I probably wouldn't be in this position now but that's all in the past and I can't do shit about it now.

I'm not proud of myself, I'm 23 with a University Degree yet I've been leeching off my parents for God knows how long already.

Should I just run back to Malaysia and try to get a job there? Then again there's the transportation issue there.. and my room.. if I don't find a replacement I'll still have to pay for the rent...

Fuck.. maybe I should just spend the money I have left in my bank on some last minute vocal course and go for the JYP auditions... =.=

Just realized I was supposed to blog about the kpopnight... but never really had the heart to do it.. I'll just leave it at that... sigh.. blogging has just turned into an output for my whines....

23rd October 2010

Ok, I'm supposed to blog about the concert... I have lots of things to say about it... but i just can't think properly at the moment... having post-concert depression.... don't get me wrong, the concert was nothing short of excellent. The sound system and the venue was a bit bad but this has to be 1 of the biggest concert ever organized in Singapore before.. 7 groups.. 3 rookies with 4 highly established groups... amazing I tell you...

I'll do a more detail post when I'm not feeling so depressed....

For those who are thinking that I should snap back to reality.. let me tell you this.. the reason why I am depressed is because I HAVE SEEN REALITY. Seeing them live was the greatest moment of my life... realizing later that we're of different worlds and I'll never be able to talk to them as equals is just plain depressing.

G.Na - Loving You

Lol.. the song in title.. feel like singing it to G.Na herself after meeting her yesterday.

A big group of us from 138 went for her fansign. Most of us gathered at Bugis to queue during lunch time. Few of them were queuing since 7.30 am so yeah, our group actually got the 2nd spot right behind the main SG G.Na fanclub's group.

All we needed for the fansign was the CD and a receipt to proof that we bought it from Singapore.

Waste of time? No. This girl here is a fantastic singer. Voice, looks, passion, attitude, she's got everything I tell you. Our group consist of hardcore SNSD fans. Half of them wanted to attend the fansign just to get her autograph on the CD to sell it out at an elevated price. After listening to her? Nearly all of them changed their minds and wanted to keep her autograph for themselves.

I was dumbfounded when she was sitting right in front of me signing my booklet. She was so beautiful up close that I couldn't really think straight. She was so busy signing booklets that she barely has the time to look up but she does look up occasionally to smile.. and I was lucky enough to see her smile at me 3 times.. lol, was pretty funny.. my 2 friends in front of me said thank you after receiving her signature and when she look up to acknowledge their thank yous, for some reason she looked at my direction instead of theirs. Probably unintentional but hey, I'm not complaining =p . I couldn't bring myself to say anything when she looked at me though.. I opened my mouth but nothing came out.. haha.. fuck, never thought I would come upon a person so beautiful. Not to mention some one with such an angelic voice. She sounds VERY good live. In fact I think her CD voice isn't as good as her live voice.

For those that are thinking she's fake or plastic? Go fuck yourself. Tired of all these stupid stereotypes on the Korean industry. It's obvious that plastic surgery is more common in the western side now. Accusing them of being plastic just because they're Korean is just fucking retarded. It's just like calling every Muslim a terrorist (no offence intended).

G.Na just debuted like 3 months ago, she's 23 this year but she's gonna make it big. She has the potential to reach the heights of Utada and Ayumi maybe even surpassing them. It's all up to Cube Ent.'s management now. All the best to you girl.

stop.... please stop....... dont make it more painful than it already is..........

Kim Jong Kook - Don't Be Good To Me

sometimes... all i can do is laugh it off..... it's ok, everything will be fine..... eventually... it will... it will...

schedule of the week:

29th sept - G.Na fansign... looking forward to seeing this girl in person.. shake her hand if i can, get her autograph and listen to her live...

2nd oct - Klub... clubbing with korean songs.. it's gonna be epic, will be going with a group of sones.. drinks, music, good company.. what more can you ask for?

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