Does it matter?

One Tree Hill

2011-09-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

So I'm here in Indonesia.. Ampah, some where in Central Kalimantan.. work related. I've been here a few days and well we don't really have anything to do here during the night. Knowing that, I downloaded Season 7 and 8 of One Tree Hill and started watching again.

I've watched Season 7 before but I stopped so long that I've forgotten the story so I'm rewatching it again. I love One Tree Hill, everything about the show is just so good since the beginning of season 1. I got attracted during season 1 because of the basketball involved and well the soundtrack was just amazing (Gavin Degraw's I don't wanna be as a starting track? fucking awesome no?).

I believe the writers of the show are incredibly talented. The great thing about the show is every season sees the characters grow. From Highschool teenagers to grown up adults. And the show is loaded with inspirational quotes and real life situations we can really learn from. After nearly every arc, we get something like a narration at the end of the episodes sometimes in the form of a speech or just a simple conversation but I find most of them to be really meaningful. Things we can really learn and apply. Oh and did I say the soundtracks are fantastic? Every season we get great music and by great I don't mean those meaningless pop or hip hop songs you hear on mainstream radio but songs with meaningful lyrics.

I'm not hooked on it as I was during my uni days (used to spent hours watching continuously) but I'm pretty happy to spend my nights here watching One Tree Hill.

I will buy the box set with all 8 seasons when I get the chance. Let me know if anybody sees it in Singapore or Malaysia ya!

Dota 2

2011-08-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

Dota 2 isnt out yet... but the world is having the first look at it at Gamescom 2011 via The International, a competition with the prize pool totalling up to USD 1.6 million..

Spent the past 4 days watching the competition every night and I have to say I'm pretty impressed with what valve has done. Graphics has improved but not to the extend of being overly beautified like HoN and they added cute in game speeches lol.

The standard of the games has been amazing. It's the finals now between Ehome and Navi.. we couldn't ask for a better finals. Game 4 now with Navi leading 2-1, past 2 games has been freaking good. Hoping for the next to be as good.

Okays Game 4 starting, bye!

One of the best dinners of my life

2011-06-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

I thought my Kpop madness would die down after i started working... Never did I thought that I was fated to go to another concert that brought the fever back to levels probably even higher than before..

Kpop Heal The World featuring T-ara, Mblaq, Tmax and After school/Orange Caramel. VERY solid line up but tickets just were to expensive for the xiao mei meis and xiao di dis... and the older people would see this as a waste of time because of them wouldnt want to pay the full ticket price just to see 1 of their favourite group.

I predicted hard sales and it really did happened.. soon prices of tickets started to drop and due to some connections we managed to get our cat 2 tickets for a bargain price of $20! or so we thought.. On the final day itself cat 1 tickets were going for as low as $40

As predicted, they were empty cat 1 seats so we moved up from cat 2 to cat 1! LOL and when they starting singing we slowly ended up standing right at the front. I'm not gonna get into the details but lets just say I'm VERY satisfied with what I could see on that day. This is Ultimately the closest to a stage I've ever been in any type of concert. Even closer than standing in the pit for Kpopnight. Sure the quality of performance will never match Kpopnight but the eye candy was amazing.

Seeing After School so close, I can easily conclude that After School is the prettiest girl group out there. Yes even more so than SNSD (Then again, SNSD's strongest appeal to me aren't their looks). I had trouble trying to focus on any of the members of After School because they were all just so amazingly pretty but ultimately Raina's eyes and voice still captivates me the most.. I have a thing for cute eyes hehe.. Seeing Because of You live.. was just like a dream come true.. one of my favourite AS songs.... <3

T-max was up next, pity them.. they're not exactly bad and they have some pretty good songs but people only know them for their BOF OSTs.. Nevertheless, good fan service from the boys, very interactive.

MBLAQ.. lol the girls totally went wild.. Lee Joon tore his shirt.. LOL.. I was busy looking at GO though. Just love his voice and I really think he looks good. He's the type that keeps his shirt on and will either melt you with his voice or make you laugh so hard at his jokes.

Finally, T-ara.. undoubtly the crowd favourite (also because the main population of After School fans decided to boycott the concert because of the stupid management only deciding to add in After School to the line up because ticket sales were slow). At this point we were RIGHT INFRONT of the damn stage. Wasn't hard for me to focus on 1 member though. I had always loved Eunjung.. her voice, her personality, her looks.. everything just attracts me.. Just spent the whole time staring and filming her...

All in all, the concert was good.. I wouldnt say it was worth the initial cat 1 price.. but anything maybe somewhere around SGD120 for cat 1 would be the concerts worth. Enjoyed myself a lot yesterday.

So came the fateful day today.. Few of my friends wanted to stalk T-ara because they knew the girls were flying off 1 am the next day.. so they went to the hotel in the morning just to wait for the girls to go out to play or eat... Little do they know the girls spent the WHOLE day in the hotel.. probably because of the rain and the managers getting worried because of the crowd gathering around the hotel.

The few of us that didn't go in the morning.. decided to meet up for dinner.. some where around the hotel just to see if we were lucky... Met at around 7.30pm at city hall and walked to Conrad Hotel.. Nothing was happening so we decided to walk around to hunt for food.. walked about 30-40 mins before we got an sms saying the girls came out to eat right opposite the hotel. We rushed right over and we saw people crowding outside the restaurant. We on the otherhand just went straight INTO the restaurant to eat. LOL. Eating right beside T-ara.. that feeling was.. amazing.. I DONT EVEN REMEMBER THE TASTE OF MY BEEF TERRIYAKI LOLOL.

Had a good view of eunjung, jiyeon and hyomin.. and when they left.. Eunjung and Soyeon waved at us! HAM EUN JUNG SMILED AND WAVED AT USSSS. AND IF YOU'VE SEEN HOW SHE WAVES AND SMILE YOU WOULD KNOW HOW HEART STOPPING THAT MOMENT WAS FOR ME! God I was just so happy during that moment. I would never had thought I would go so crazy over dinner.. haha..

4 groups to add on to the list of live kpop acts i've seen.. Beast is next.. I'm hoping to catch B1A4 in August.. Hopefully some stalking for FT Island when they're here for the Korean Wave Concert.

No pictures or videos because i'm lazy.. I got full eunjung fancams for Bo beep bo beep and I go crazy because of you though.. just lazy to put it here.. LOL

GREAT NIGHT

2011-06-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

Lets add T-ara, After School, MBLAQ and T-Max to the list of korean groups i've seen live :)

AMAZINGLY FREAKINGLY CLOSE THIS TIME... splitting headache.. gonna upload my 2 eunjung fancams a bit later... and maybe do a longer blog post abt the concert.. it seriously was absolutely great.

6th sense

2011-04-13T04:32:00.002+08:00

I have this knack of receiving random info from surroundings randomly.. its like i tend to notice things faster than the people around me... the problem is, when i WANT to find out about things i cant... stuff that i never thought of just pops up in my mind and i'm suddenly realizing things.. most of the times, things that i shouldn't know, or at least i'm better off not knowing about...

i'm not trying to say i'm good or anything but i really do believe i have a very strong sixth sense and i'm pretty sure i'm not the only one realizing this as i've mind hacked the people around me (most of the time unintentionally) countless of times.

i've stumbled upon something today... unintentionally of course.. and i do wonder... is this observation skill i have a gift or a curse? because it seems like the more i know about stuff the worst i feel.. especially when i cant really tell anyone about it because no one else realizes anything.. LOL

argh watever.. random mumbling..

hiatus

2011-03-24T06:39:00.001+08:00

So I herd my blog is abandoned.... most probably will stay that way... lost the will to write...

Taylor Alison Swift

2011-02-10T05:17:00.003+08:00

ok, I can add Taylor Swift to the list of celebrities that I've seen in the flesh. SHE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME I TELL YOU I WAS DAMN HAPPY! HAHA!

Was impromptu but me and a few friends decided to try and catch a glimpse of Taylor before her concert.. Went to her hotel but she wasn't in. After some investigating, we found out she was in Tanglin Mall so we took a cab down. Sadly we missed her and soon after Taylor herself tweeted that she's on the way to Singapore Indoor Stadium to prepare for her concert. We then took cab to the stadium.

A crowd gathered at a barricaded area leading to the staff entrance so we hung out there and waited. 2 white vans carrying the band members arrived first followed by a black mercedes van which Taylor herself was sitting in. The moment she got down the van, she went over the the barricades and started greeting all the fans. The best part was she was carrying her own marker and started signing everything in sight! LOL

At this point I was already pushing my way in through the crowd to the front of the barricades and all the pushing paid off because at a point of time she was standing right infront of me. Sadly, I didn't have ANYTHING with me that could be signed.. I could only watch in envy as she was signing the fanboard of the girl beside me.. An unforgettable experience.. this girl.. so young yet so charismatic and pretty. Amazing

Regretted not watching the concert... Would have been pretty epic

2011-02-02T01:16:00.002+08:00

supposed to blog about hong kong.. but never really had the mood to write about it... wanted to blog about the movie Shaolin too.. I really have a lot to write about that movie but.. yeah lets just say blogging just isnt fun anymore....

i'm alive, and i'm ok.. cny.. going back to my paternal family's side tmr... i'll try to enjoy cny as much as possible.. =)

속도 모르고 남의 속도 모르고
사랑하는 내 마음도 그댄 모르고 원망하지마
사랑하면서 보내려는 내 마음도
바보같이 모르고 아파하지마
남의 속도 모르고

2011-01-28T07:22:00.003+08:00

some times.. i really wish i had a best friend.. some one that i can talk my heart out with.... sure i've been less emo post-snsd... but life can never be perfect... problems will still occur... I've always had problems finding people that I trust to poor out my feelings whole heartedly.. bottling up has made me hot-tempered at times...

Fate?

2011-01-12T06:38:00.002+08:00

What are the odds of you going to a foreign country for a holiday.... and the girl of your dreams so happens to ALSO go to the same country which is also foreign to her for a holiday on the exact same time? I never thought it was possible but it happened.... I didn't manage to see her but the fact that we both unintentionally went to the same place for a holiday at the same time means something right?

Do you believe in fate?

I'll try blog about Hong Kong some time soon... but just like what happened for Kpop Night, I doubt I'll actually take time to write out a long detailed post about my trip.... I'm just too lazy.. I'll wait for the pictures and we'll see whether I have the mood then.

A new year...

2011-01-04T02:53:00.002+08:00

So another year has passed... seems like I've stopped blogging much since I've started twitter + tumblr... Just can't find the mood to actually type out long paragraphs. 140 words is just so much easier and much less of a hassle to do.

Here's a quick round-up of 2010. I wont be doing specific events or stuff.. Just a brief summary.

2010 passed like in just a blink of an eye. I spent the whole year.. doing nothing I guess... There were moments when I feel the world isn't a nice to be in and kinda have thoughts on whether life is worth living. Thankfully I have supportive friends and family that were always there for me.

2010 was the year where I really got into Kpop. My whole life now is dominated by not just SNSD alone but Koreans as a whole. Dramas, music, variety shows, food... Spending a lot of money and time because of this but I wouldn't say I'm regretting it. Kpop has somehow changed me a lot. I'm not as emo as I used to be. I'm a happier person now and I tend to look at the brighter side of things. I may still be a bit short-tempered at times but I do realize that and it's something I need to change.

2010 was when my luck was really terrible. If you backtrack to one of my first posts of the year, there's a post of me talking about my terrible luck. It was a year that made me realized that luck is a major factor in life and ignoring it is not an option. Things were terrible all year round and yes, there were a few good moments but nevertheless it's been one of my worst years ever.

2010 was the year that I made the most Singaporeans friends compared to the past few years that I've been in Singapore. I can count the number of Singaporen friends that I've made during my course of study in NUS with only 1 hand. That number expanded amazingly quick after I went for my first SONE meet up with the 138 gang. I now know people from all corners of the island and it feels good to expand my list of contacts. Another good thing that Kpop brought into my life I guess.

All in all, I survived the year but it's more of a shameful year for me. The year that I saved when I skipped from standard 3 to standard 5 was just wasted in 2010. I'm determined thought to not waste another year.

In 2011, I need to find a job.... like fast. I'm praying right after Chinese New Year. I'm also looking into the option of coming back to Malaysia, I'll going to just set a date and if I don't get a job by that date I'll start sending resumes to Malaysian companies.

I'm looking forward to what the year may bring. Good or bad, I'm still gonna live it with smiles. An important thing that I've learned from 9 girls is to keep going on despite the troubles that appear . Obstacles are not there to stop you but only to slow you down from getting where you want to be. I'm just going to take my time and enjoy this road called life.

Its late but Happy New Year! =)

Overspending...

2010-12-12T20:09:00.003+08:00

I was looking back at my bank statements for the past 2 and a half months and i realized i spent a staggering amount for food and transportation... past few weeks especially... gotta stop spending so much.... aih...

i'm so sorry but I love you da geojitmal~

Retarded Me

2010-11-19T12:06:00.004+08:00

People think I'm having fun at home. People think I like spending my time watching dramas, playing games, reading mangas and watching videos of soshi. Let me tell you this, I'm no where close to happy doing all these day and night. You people don't understand what it's like to sit here everyday hoping to get a call from one of the many potential employers that you have sent an email to.

I've been doing this same shit for months and no, I'm not liking how I spent my life everyday. You may say I can just go and simply find a job first. Easier said than done? I've applied for lower level positions but they deemed me as overqualified because I have a degree. Degree job employers sees me as under-qualified because my results sucks and I have no work or internship experience. I'm caught in the damn middle where nobody wants to give me a chance. Not being a PR isn't really helping either.

Find a part-time job? Do you think I have never thought of it? Sure my results are bad but I'm not lacking of common sense. I CAN'T work part-time, I have no valid pass to allow me to do so. The same for any other full time odd jobs, employers will not want to apply a work permit for a person they know will leave once he gets a better job offer.

Sure I brought this upon myself. If I had studied harder or made more initiative to get an internship, I probably wouldn't be in this position now but that's all in the past and I can't do shit about it now.

I'm not proud of myself, I'm 23 with a University Degree yet I've been leeching off my parents for God knows how long already.

Should I just run back to Malaysia and try to get a job there? Then again there's the transportation issue there.. and my room.. if I don't find a replacement I'll still have to pay for the rent...

Fuck.. maybe I should just spend the money I have left in my bank on some last minute vocal course and go for the JYP auditions... =.=

Just realized I was supposed to blog about the kpopnight... but never really had the heart to do it.. I'll just leave it at that... sigh.. blogging has just turned into an output for my whines....

23rd October 2010

2010-10-25T02:59:00.003+08:00

Ok, I'm supposed to blog about the concert... I have lots of things to say about it... but i just can't think properly at the moment... having post-concert depression.... don't get me wrong, the concert was nothing short of excellent. The sound system and the venue was a bit bad but this has to be 1 of the biggest concert ever organized in Singapore before.. 7 groups.. 3 rookies with 4 highly established groups... amazing I tell you...

I'll do a more detail post when I'm not feeling so depressed....

For those who are thinking that I should snap back to reality.. let me tell you this.. the reason why I am depressed is because I HAVE SEEN REALITY. Seeing them live was the greatest moment of my life... realizing later that we're of different worlds and I'll never be able to talk to them as equals is just plain depressing.

G.Na - Loving You

2010-10-01T02:43:00.004+08:00

Lol.. the song in title.. feel like singing it to G.Na herself after meeting her yesterday.

A big group of us from 138 went for her fansign. Most of us gathered at Bugis to queue during lunch time. Few of them were queuing since 7.30 am so yeah, our group actually got the 2nd spot right behind the main SG G.Na fanclub's group.

All we needed for the fansign was the CD and a receipt to proof that we bought it from Singapore.

Waste of time? No. This girl here is a fantastic singer. Voice, looks, passion, attitude, she's got everything I tell you. Our group consist of hardcore SNSD fans. Half of them wanted to attend the fansign just to get her autograph on the CD to sell it out at an elevated price. After listening to her? Nearly all of them changed their minds and wanted to keep her autograph for themselves.

I was dumbfounded when she was sitting right in front of me signing my booklet. She was so beautiful up close that I couldn't really think straight. She was so busy signing booklets that she barely has the time to look up but she does look up occasionally to smile.. and I was lucky enough to see her smile at me 3 times.. lol, was pretty funny.. my 2 friends in front of me said thank you after receiving her signature and when she look up to acknowledge their thank yous, for some reason she looked at my direction instead of theirs. Probably unintentional but hey, I'm not complaining =p . I couldn't bring myself to say anything when she looked at me though.. I opened my mouth but nothing came out.. haha.. fuck, never thought I would come upon a person so beautiful. Not to mention some one with such an angelic voice. She sounds VERY good live. In fact I think her CD voice isn't as good as her live voice.

For those that are thinking she's fake or plastic? Go fuck yourself. Tired of all these stupid stereotypes on the Korean industry. It's obvious that plastic surgery is more common in the western side now. Accusing them of being plastic just because they're Korean is just fucking retarded. It's just like calling every Muslim a terrorist (no offence intended).

G.Na just debuted like 3 months ago, she's 23 this year but she's gonna make it big. She has the potential to reach the heights of Utada and Ayumi maybe even surpassing them. It's all up to Cube Ent.'s management now. All the best to you girl.

2010-09-28T06:24:00.002+08:00

stop.... please stop....... dont make it more painful than it already is..........

Kim Jong Kook - Don't Be Good To Me

2010-09-27T01:21:00.003+08:00

sometimes... all i can do is laugh it off..... it's ok, everything will be fine..... eventually... it will... it will...

schedule of the week:

29th sept - G.Na fansign... looking forward to seeing this girl in person.. shake her hand if i can, get her autograph and listen to her live...

2nd oct - Klub... clubbing with korean songs.. it's gonna be epic, will be going with a group of sones.. drinks, music, good company.. what more can you ask for?

Tiffany - 나 혼자서

2010-09-26T10:20:00.000+08:00

제발 모른 체 지나가요
제발 눈길도 주지마요
모래바람같은 날들에
아무것도 내게 주지마요

내 마음 하나 접어두고
내 눈물하나 숨겨두고
처음 본것처럼 낯선 사람처럼
지나가요 그래야만해요

나 혼자서 사랑을 말하고
사랑을 보내고
혼자쌓은 추억에 겹겹히 눈물이 베여
먼곳에 있어도 그대 행복하길
나의 사랑을 가슴깊이 묻어요

다음 세상 우리 태어나면
그땐 사랑으로 마주봐요
운명앞에 힘없이 지는 일
두 번 다시 없게 태어나요

나 그대앞에 꽃이되고
나 그대위해 노래하고
한사람 여자로
한 남자 여인으로
그대곁에 늘 살고 싶어요

나혼자서 사랑을 말하고
사랑을 보내고
혼자쌓은 추억에 겹겹히 눈물이 베여
먼곳에 있어도 그대 행복하길
나의 사랑을 가슴속 깊이

아파도 아파져도
절대난 울지 않아요
마음의 사랑을 이별이 없음이
이 삶이 끝나고 다음 세상에 우리
꼭 사랑해요 꼭 사랑해요 우리

2010-09-16T11:06:00.002+08:00

Becoming sick of the phrase "Only Singaporean or PR need apply". Fucking retarded

Khaotic

2010-09-06T01:52:00.003+08:00

I'm finally gonna be able to see them... Cat1 standing ticket with me now... after 16 hours at 313 Somerset..

It's my first time queuing for something so big. Apart from the terrible management by Prooflabel which I rather not write about, I felt the whole overnight thing was a pretty good experience. Got to know a lot of people, learned a thing or two about crowd management (thanks to the failure of Prooflabel) and I've got my ticket!

Believe me, I will never be able to get my ticket at cost price if I didn't stay overnight. Even by staying, my "random" queue number of 2262 will not even come close of snagging me a ticket. Luckily the 138 group (138 being the number of all the Oh! jerseys added up together and yes, Fany's 0 is included), had enough people over there to buy just enough tickets for all of us that stayed overnight. It was a bit sad that some people in our group that couldn't stay overnight with us didn't get their tickets but we did what we could and rest assured we will still paint the concert venue pink for our girls.

And just in case people are wondering? When we sones(SNSD fans are called sones, like duh) meet up, we don't only talk about SNSD and kpop. Many other topics come into the conversations too =.=

Well though I did say I wouldn't write anything about Prooflabel's failure.. I still want to share something a fellow sone wrote:

I have my ticket, thanks to the paragon of management and crowd control skills that is Proof Label!

From the events of the past 24 hours, I've drawn many valuable lessons.

1. Behold, the foundation of one of the greatest organizations to grace Singaporean soil : NO HEAD, NO TAIL.

2. It is indeed humanly possible to be inhumanly incompetent.

3. It is possible to be in an OFFICIAL QUEUE and then be given RANDOM QUEUE NUMBERS. Now that's a first, and definitely something to remember.

Proof Label, it is with deepest sincerity that I say to you...you couldn't organize the clothes in your wardrobe, much less an event involving 6 highly respected groups from KOREA, and consequently 6 of the largest and most fervent local fandoms in Singapore.

Do you understand the word 'fandom'? These are groups of people who grin with glee at the sight of the slightest upturned lip of their idols. People who would scream and sing their love and support JUST SO their idols would know they had it.

Obviously, fandom is a new word to you.

You made thousands of hopefuls gather at 313 late a night, thinking that they could have a fair chance in getting a ticket to see their idols next month, then lied to them over and over again, made them sit for hours before telling those in front "oh, you'll be getting randomized queue tags." *applause* - no - *standing ovation*.

The situation last night was so hopelessly ridiculous I cannot even begin to describe it in words, and I know there are countless others who feel the same way.

I would offer you my finger...two, in fact, but that would just lower me down to the level of your absolutely admirable organizational skills.

You have just lost the faith of EVERYONE present at yesterday's event, and quite possibly many more in time to come.

Take our advice. Don't bother trying to 'organize' something like this for us again. Leave it to the professionals

Credits: Khairul from SG sones facebook group

Couldn't have written it any better. Nevertheless, thank you Prooflabel for bringing the girls here. I freaking hope you guys don't do something stupid again and screw the concert up for the 6 bands. We're all already at our limits after that bullshit you put us all through just for the tickets.

Oh by the way.. I'm on the front page of The New Paper.. LOL! Now that's a first.

2010-08-26T04:02:00.001+08:00

a job now would make my life close to perfect now...

꿈꾸는듯

2010-08-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

I came back from dinner to see the biggest most amazing news I had since my parents told me I could go to Bangkok to see the girls. I was scanning through twitter and there you have it, GIRLS' GENERATION, FT ISLAND, BIG BANG, SHINEE, INFINITE and 1 more group will be coming to Singapore on the 23rd October.

Now I really don't know how to express myself but seriously, the girls are coming.... I never thought I that I could actually see them in Singapore... but this is real..

They announced that 6 korean groups will come 2 weeks ago and when I read the news, I somehow thought that the girls wont be coming because they'll be busy with Japan promotions. So I didn't really expect this.... The news really hit me hard and for a moment I just stared at the computer screen not knowing what to feel or do. Next thing I know I sms-ed my sister to ask her to come online.. mind you I have NEVER EVER sms-ed my sister ever since I came over to Singapore...

The ticket price hasn't been announced yet but I'm sure it wont be cheap.. and I'm pretty sure tickets will be sold out in a blink of an eye. They've only announced 5 of the 6 groups and 4 out that 5 are VERY established korean groups. Big Bang and FT Island are 2 of my favourite male groups. It's like one of the best line-ups I can ever ask for in 1 concert.

They haven't announce the ticket prices yet but I'm going no matter how expensive it is. I'm sorry dad, but it's not something I would miss out for the world (BTW, puding will probably cry for 1 whole month if you don't let her go.. HAHA).

Lucky Friday the 13th

2010-08-17T00:23:00.002+08:00

Last Friday was supposed to be the so-called bad luck "Friday the 13th". Instead it turned out to be the best day of the 2010 so far and I doubt that anything is gonna top it during the remaining time of the year (well unless I get to see SNSD).

It was the first day I managed to catch a kpop act live and it's not only 1 group, it's 2! 4Minute and Beast made their way down for a showcase thanks to Samsung and YOG. Thanks to my lovely friend, I managed to get 2 VIP passes for the event!

Went with my sis and though we were seated pretty far from the stage, we totally enjoyed the show. We watch these girls and boys every week and the internet but seeing them perform live is a whole new experience.

I have always liked 4Minute's songs, all the way from their debut song Hot Issue until the current I My Me Mine. I loved their music but I never really got into the group because frankly speaking, apart from Hyunah, the other members never really appear frequently in variety shows.

Then the 15 year old So Hyun suddenly chopped her long hair down and I started to notice her on stage more often. SHE'S SO CUTE!!! especially when she bobs her head left to right during the "click click" part in I My Me Mine. It was then that I starting taking more interest in the group and at the same period, my friend here suddenly said he wanted to buy a Samsung Galaxy S. Coincidentally, on the exact day that he said he was going to buy the phone, Samsung announced that they were going to bring 4Minute and Beast to Singapore and passes are obtainable when a Galaxy S is purchased! Destined? =D

You HAVE to admire the girls whether you are a fan or not. They've been flying continuously between Korea and Japan, performing in showcases and appearing in interviews. They took the time to fly down to Singapore to perform and they didn't just do their normal choreo for their songs. The added a few dance breaks and remixes to their performances and everything went perfectly on stage.

Then there was Beast, the 6-member male group from the same company as 4Minute. I wasn't a big fan and I could only name 3 out of the 6 members but watching them live has probably change my perception on them. The dancing, live vocals, crowd interaction, etc was great.

All in all, me and my sis left Marina Boulevard as very satisfied Kpop fans.

I would like to really thank Mr. Koay Kai Lin for giving me and my sister the opportunity to experience our first live Korean performance. Thanks to you, we're probably gonna spend a lot of money in the future going to any Korean concert in Malaysia or Singapore..

Hahahaha, get back to full health soon my friend. Let's have a drink in the near future.

GG

2010-08-12T11:40:00.001+08:00

ok i'm farking broke.....

Brighter than gems(or mushroom) Fany Fany Tiffany...

2010-08-01T02:53:00.007+08:00

I dont usually do birthday posts for the girls but I believe Tiffany deserves one. I know I am a big Yoona fan and all but if you asked me who is the most inspiring and motivational figure in Girls' Generation? The answer has to be Tiffany.

This girl at her early teens left her home in the US to pursue her dream to be a singer in Korea. Eventhough she was alone in a foreign country, Tiffany had always been bright, friendly and loud. After 3 years as a trainee in SM Entertainment, she finally debuted with 9 other girls as Girls' Generation/SNSD.
It was supposed to be a dream come true for her but things weren't so bright then. Like other Korean artists, as SNSD fan base grew, so did the number of anti-fans and it's sad to say that Tiffany has picked up the most anti-fans compared with the other girls of SNSD. She was critisized for being rude to her seniors, called clumsy because of her mistakes in performances, and nicknamed Ddilfany (dumb fany) for being bad with the Korean language.

Despite all those hatred diverted towards her, Tiffany never did once showed signs of giving up. All she did was flash that famous smile of hers and try harder to improve on her short-comings. 3 years after her debut, she now speaks perfect Korean. She improved to the extend that she was casted as an MC for Music Core. She no longer makes glaring mistakes on stage because she works harder then the other girls just to perfect her dances.

Read the testimonials from staffs or artists that had met Tiffany before and you'll find it funny that they are people that can actually hate this girl. She's hardworking, lovely, kind-hearted, cheerful, friendly and the list just goes on.

Among the 9 girls, she's the most hardworking one as aknowledged by SNSD's manager himself. Among the 9 girls, she's the one that takes care of the other members the most as aknowledged by the members themselves. Among all idol singers, she's the friendliest one as aknowledged by many people that had a chance to work with her.

She has this amazingly attractive and bubbly voice that just makes you want to listen to her eventhough she's blabbering nonsense. Her vocals are nothing short of amazing.

The media and antis have tried to destroy Tiffany after her debut. It obviously didn't work. She persevered through those hard times and as time passed, antis turned into loyal fans. I've read fan testimonials that they have initially hated Tiffany but the more they know her, they found it hard to not like her. An American born girl who was once hated has changed into a Korean singer that is loved by many.

She's achieved so much and it's all because she worked hard and didn't give up. It's hard to see but this matured girl just turned 21 today.

Happy 21st Birthday

Tiffany Hwang Mi Young!

Testimonials:
“It was really brave of her, really. I had my whole family supporting me. They’re here with me right now, but she still doesn’t have her family here and now she’s so big, she’s so huge, here in Korea. And, I think her family would really be happy.” - SNSD Jessica.

“Tiffany cannot lead in dancing or anything but she knows her weakness well, and to improve…for example if we had to master some choreography in one hour, she would practice for another two more hours. So yeah, I was envious of her hard working spirit.” - SNSD Yuri.

“She really studies hard. She became the MC for a music show and she felt proud and studied even harder. Everyday she would study the script and write down things she didn’t know, and ask about words she doesn’t understand and would write down the definitions.” - SNSD Yoona.

“All of my unnies take care of me very well, but Tiffany takes care of me a lot.” - SNSD SeoHyun.

“When I had an eye contact with her randomly, she shows that sweet eye smile. Every time I see that smile, I feel happier. It makes me to smile along side her so hard that my cheekbone starts to hurt” -Inkigayo scriptwriter.

“Aegyoful cute Tiffany. She gave me chocolate, and after the shooting, She sat right next to me on the floor. Not sure why but she looked and smiled happily at my startled expression. So we took this picture, and took another one using my cell phone. She’s really cheerful and kind. Probably that was a part her training…but it’s hard to find someone kind and good mannered like her these days. I just want to say I was honored that we shared a lengthy conversation.” - Arena staff member.

“The door opened and Tiffany first came inside the studio. Slim legs and bright smile. She already became a lady from a girl. But the ground shaking sound of “Hello!”, her unique greeting is still the same. Without a doubt, Tiffany has the sincerest greeting manner among idol singers I have seen. Not only that she really actively participates in the interviews. Well, half of things she talks about is on herself, but for another half, she talks about how good other members are before anyone.” - Interviewer from 10 Asia.

“SNSD members are all nice. Especially Tiffany and Sunny are examples of really nice young adults, which is kind of hard to find these days. They are like angels. I should have known it from the last photo-shoot I had with them. Those two greeted 45 staff members individually. Truthfully, this never happens and I would almost say that it’s weird to see such a situation. Tiffany was also very unique. All throughout shooting, she kept advertising for us. I guess she had a phone call during the 1 hour break for lunch. She kept repeating on the phone that everyone here is really nice and fun to work with. That made me feel so thankful, but in addition, she would make and bring coffee for staff members. Usually it would be the staffs who would bring coffee for the idols, so how nice must that have been… Photographer Kim Dongchul was eating a sandwich and she went over there to thank him and give him a little massage. After shooting, Kim Dongchul said, “They are really nice people. I wish I can marry off my son to one of them,” and was full of other good compliments. Tiffany brought a chair for the editor who stood up to organize the charts, and Sunny, who did not have any breakfast herself, handed out sandwiches to all staff members before sitting down to eat herself. I really want to thank the two of them and say that they grew up really well. I remember being really surprised a few weeks ago, on Kim Jungeun’s Chocolate, Tiffany said that her mother… was not with her anymore. I thought that Tiffany was raised so well inspite of that and would like to see my daughters grow up to be like Tiffany in the future.” - Ceci Fashion Editor.

“Tiffany was the best, she and Yuri really cheered us up. I was holding the reflector for her and was just three feet away from her and I was so tired I murmured ‘oh darn… so tiring…’ then Tiffany looked at me and said ‘It is tiring yes? Hwaiting!! Cheer up!!!’ so I told her she was my favorite and she laughed out loud.” - LG Chocolate Assistant.

“The way Tiffany unnie thinks… She is very mature. Her sense of responsibility is strong as well. There are many things to learn from her.” - SeoHyun.

“I’d like to have Fany’s bright and positive personality. I really like to learn her toughness and positive mind that allow her to persistently overcome any fears.” - Sunny.

“When Tiffany laughs, she laughs so innocently and like a child. But she’s really mature and adult-like. She’s really thoughtful and I think there are lots of things we can learn from her.” - Sooyoung.

“She can shed tears because she went through a lot of pain that people don’t know about.” - Kang Ho Dong during strong heart talking about Tiffany’s pre-debut years.

“Because of my introverted personality, it was really difficult at first but Fany supported me well. She’s younger than me but I learned a lot from her. She’s really hardworking, and it feels comfortable around her.” - Kim Hyesung

“Tiffany has an ability to capture people’s heart.” - Sung ShiKyung

“Tiff is a fighter and that’s what I love most about her, she’s very optimistic too so she’s pretty much the lil’ sis I never had” - Ida ‘DJ Isak’ Simmons.

“‘The one who gives me faith’. When I’m tired I talk to Tiffany unnie, she listens to me and gives me advice and prays for me. When I listen to those words from unnie I start feeling lot better and happier.” - Sulli.

“She is seriously one of the most self-less and truly loving friends I’ve ever known or met. She cares so much about every one of you, and she really does pray for all her fans, I think sometimes more than herself. She is a walking angel.” - Jaeson Ma.

And last but not least... "TIFFANY JJANG!" - SNSD leader Kim Taeyeon

Credit - http://stephaniehwang.blogspot.com/

Was supposed to...

2010-07-24T13:00:00.013+08:00

Today........

I was supposed to be in Bangkok.

I was supposed to meet up with fellow Singaporean and Malaysian Sones.

I was supposed to que up with thousands of people to enter Impact Arena, Bangkok.

I was supposed to wave a pink lightstick like a fanatic.

I was supposed to join in the sea of pink balloons.

I was supposed to scream out fan chants with thousands of other Sones.

I was supposed to lose my voice while trying to get the girl of my dreams to notice my existence.

I was supposed to stand right infront of the stage hoping for any props used on stage be thrown down to my direction.

I was supposed to go crazy and dance along to Gee, Oh and many other songs that feels my life everyday since February 2009.

I was supposed to witness the live the my favourite group choreography that had ever graced the Korean music industry.

I was supposed to be right infront of 9 amazing girls that has light up the lives of millions of people.

I was supposed to meet Girls' Generation.. So Nyuh Shi Dae.. 소녀시대

Today...

I was supposed to witness for myself how a powerful voice can come out from a girl so young and cute. I was supposed to meet the ever so bright Seo Ju Hyun.

I was supposed to witness for myself the girl that is widely declared by many other celebraties, the prettiest girl ever to grace the stage. I was supposed to meet the playful yet beautiful Im Yoon Ah.

I was supposed to witness for myself one of the tallest and slimmest girl whom never backs down from food dance on stage. I was supposed to meet the intimidating yet sweet "Shikshin" Choi Soo Young.

I was supposed to witness for myself the flexibility and sexiness of the girl that sleeps with her tongue sticking out. I was supposed to meet the yurisistable black pearl Kwon Yuri.

I was supposed to witness for myself the randomness of the girl that turns serious the moment she starts dancing. I was supposed to meet the dorky dance queen Kim Hyo Yeon.

I was supposed to witness for myself the eye-smile that melted so many guys' hearts. I was supposed to meet the lovely and loud Tiffany Hwang Mi Young.

I was supposed to witness for myself the energetic bunny that has the ability to lift the mood with her voice. I was supposed to meet the cute enery pill Sunny Lee Soon Kyu.

I was supposed to witness for myself the girl that can scream as high as a dolphin and has the ability to day dream anywhere and anytime she feels like it. I was supposed to meet the melted ice princess Jessica Jung Soo Yeon.

I was supposed to witness for myself the kind-hearted leader that lead the girls to where they are eventhough she has a tendency to act as a kid sometimes. I was supposed to meet the dorky but influential Kim Tae Yeon.

It was supposed to be a good day... but it never happened.....

SM family.

2010-07-24T02:19:00.002+08:00

a short one... i've noticed this ever since i've been into kpop. the biggest difference between artists from SME and artists from other production companies is stage manners. While other companies (JYP especially) try to make their artists perform "professionally", SME actually gave their artists a bit more freedom. The result? On-the-spot choreo improvisations, random shout-outs in between lyrics and most importantly happy faces laughing while performing.

I'm supposed to attend a concert by 1 of those groups tomorrow..... things didn't go the way I wanted in the end.... Life sucks...

Friendster.... and what-ifs

2010-07-22T02:28:00.003+08:00

Some people may not even remember Friendster but before Facebook, Friendster was the "in" thing. Back then there was no games or apps for us to waste time on. Just a website solely for keeping us connected with friends.

It's been a few years since I've logged in to Friendster and I really never had the thought of doing so because EVERYONE has switched to Facebook. Out of the blue, a friend of mine said something about having a good time reminiscing while reading her past testimonials from Friendster so I thought maybe I should just log in to see what people wrote about me back then..

I was pretty surprise at what I read though... back in my highscool to college days, nearly everyone included the words "intelligent/smart/clever" or thanked me for helping them in various subjects. I never did hear those words again after leaving Taylor's. No longer am I needed for help in anything relating to academics.. Other than English, I lost confidence in every other subject available.

Then I wonder.. would things had been different if I stayed here to study instead? Friends who asked me for help back then have completed their studies here (mostly with honours) and are happily working. Here I am just barely able to graduate and struggling to find a job.

Ahh... life is just full of "what ifs" right? =)

Yeah, reading those testimonials gave me a hint of regret but I had a good time reading the them. Those funny stuff people say about me and memories of those times spent together was truely worth logging in again. To those who haven't been logging in to friendster, go ahead and spend a few minutes reading your past testimonials... you will definitely end the day smiling (or crying because you miss those times).

PS: 1 thing that I still hear often is the gay comments and the very-talkative-especially-when-the-topic-is-girls... hmmm

4 minute - I my me mine

2010-07-17T04:21:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to have a lot of things to blog about... graduation.. world cup finals... sucky movies (predators and frozen) and some other stuff.. then again i'm just too lazy.

To summarize, the team I predicted to win the world cup won it. Nuff said bout football. Graduation.. like FINALLY! Lazy to post pictures now cz I dont have it on this lappy.. maybe some other day. Movies? DONT watch predators and frozen in the cinema.. totally wasted my money..

Gonna catch Inception by Christopher Nolan tomorrow, the GENIUS that gave us Dark Knight and Memento (those who haven't watched Memento please do, it's a very good movie. A bit on the psychological side but its good). I hope it's as good as his past movie, movies have been terribly disappointing nowadays.

Gonna leave you with a pic of my new obsession.. The cute Kwon So Hyun from 4minute =)

penalties...

2010-07-03T05:33:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhh...... I just finished watching Ghana vs Uruguay and I have to say those final seconds of extra-time has to be the most dramatic I've ever seen since I started watching football. Uruguay wont it on penalties but if it wasn't because of Suarez turning into a volleyball player to save his team and Gyan missing the subsequent penalty, Ghana would have deservingly went through.

The game was great, both team had their spells on top and created chances but you have to give credit to Ghana. Went out there as the lowest ranked team left in the tournament but played with so much spirit and determination. The just took over towards the end of the game, their lack of technical ability was obvious but unlike England players, they made up with hard work.

It's just sad that they had to lose on penalties.. Sure they took BAD penalties.. (the penalties was so bad, even I could have saved them), but it's just a cruel way to go out especially after playing a great tournament.

Then there's Luis Suarez incredible save during the final seconds of extra time. Credit him or hate him? If he didn't used BOTH of his hands to do a volleyball block, Ghana would have scored the winning goal. So in exchange of getting sent off, he kept his team in the tournament. Luck played apart because Asamoah Gyan whom already dispatched 2 penalties with relative ease in this tournament crashed his spot-kick towards the crossbar.

IF the penalty had went in, Suarez would probably have nightmares for months to come but instead, Gyan will now be the one having nightmares. Just shows how every second can change the outcome of a person's live in a match. It was one of those "Write the future" moments that Nike was trying to use as an advertisement.

Really wanted Ghana to go all the way and win this thing. Would have been a VERY emotional finals. Guess my dream along with the dreams of all Africa just burned into ashes tonight. Time to just enjoy the rest of the tournament, the quarter-finals have been very exciting so far. Germany vs Argentina will be a very good game if Germany scores first. I'm tipping Argentina to go through though, so far my guesses are all pretty accurate and I hope it continues to be. Would love to see Spain vs Argentina in the semis.

South Korea out....

2010-06-27T04:03:00.002+08:00

Went to Mcdonalds to watch the South Korea vs Uruguay game. Was surprised that everyone in Mcdonalds was supporting Korea eventhough Uruguay obviously had the better players individually.

Enjoyed the game, both sides came out attacking with Uruguay getting an early goal to open up the game. Korea could have win it though, a little bit more luck and composure and they would have gotten an equaliser when they were 2-1 down. Credits to them, worked hard and lost to an amazing goal.

Went to a cyber cafe to spend some time on L4D2 before heading off to Kepong for some Bah Kut Teh that only opens at 2am to 6am. The bah kut teh was quite imba, the dried one was pretty tasty while the soup one was good (though not the best).

Reached home just in time for the 2nd half of the Ghana vs USA game and it's pretty exciting. Final 5 mins now and both teams are leveled with 1 goal each. Gonna go concentrate on the game now!

Seo Ju Hyun - It's ok even if it hurts

2010-06-26T12:25:00.007+08:00

hmm, my blog hasn't been filled with anything but whines and rants lately....

Met up with Kah Wei yesterday. It's been a good 3-4 years since we've met? He's grown bigger though.. lol, I guess we all gaine weight after staying overseas for a period of time. No worries, lets sweat it out tomorrow in the futsal court. =D

Went to a American Diner in Aman Suria for dinner, can't remember the name of the place though. Food was so-so and it's not cheap either. Planned to go to Kayu to watched the Bra vs Por game but it ended up drizzling so we couldn't get a place because the indoors was packed. Walked off nearby to a small cafe to watch. The game was terrible though, I think we spent more time critisizing Ronaldo than concentrating on the game. Few chances here and there but neither team showed any urgency since both will go through after a draw.

The blog rarely has pictures so I'm gonna end it with some.

Gonna miss Sunny, Yuri and Hyunah in the show... how is it that they managed to take 3 of my favourite members out at 1 go? =(

My favourite group picture of the girls. It's the same portrait that hangs on the wall of their dorm's living room. Everyone looks so happy here.

2010-06-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

aih.. parents are pressuring me to get a job now... they're asking me to come back to Malaysia and work... but it's not that easy.. I can't just decide to come back and leave everything in Singapore...

My room is 1 thing.. if I were to leave I would definitely need to look for a replacement and it won't be easy to look for somebody now... My parents thinks it's ok to let my housemates look for a replacement by themselves but that's not the right way to do things. The room is under me and it is my responsibility not theirs. I can't just tell them "hey, I'm gonna work in Malaysia. Bye". Just because there's no written contract for the tenancy doesn't mean I don't have to be responsible.

There's also a lot of things to consider when I work here. How bout transportations? I can't freaking rely on the public transport, it's like asking me to bet on North Korea to win the world cup.

Then there's my stuff and my bank accounts and other miscellaneous things...

I know I am currently wasting a lot of time and money. I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO REPEAT THIS FACT TO ME. It's not like I don't care or anything. I go to sleep EVERY NIGHT thinking about the time and money and wasting. So just stop repeating it to me.

I think I'm starting to regret not going for that teaching interview..........

Anybody got lubang for a half-decent job in Singapore? ANYTHING will do, just as long as it's full-time and the pay's not far below 2k.. (Yes I'll take shits below 2k too if it's an acceptable job).

Retards..

2010-06-02T04:31:00.002+08:00

Like how immature and selfish are people nowadays? It's fine if you want to catch a glimpse of her. It's fine if you want to snap some shots from far away. It's fine if you follow her around from a distance. It's even fine if you go up to her and say hi and leave. But why the hell must people spread news on where ever she's going? To let other fans catch a glimpse of her? Oh how considerate of you all. Have you all ever thought that all she wants to do is have a relaxing holiday with her family and not going around entertaining fans?

To publisize her whereabouts will only mean large groups of people stalking her where ever she goes. If that isn't bad enough, people had to go around SCREAMING her name. It doesn't stop with the stalking and screaming, some asshole had to go and shuff his camera right into her face to snap a pic which obviously upsetted her. Hey retard, you want pictures? ITS ALL OVER THE INTERNET! What's the point of taking a picture at point blank range?

She finally has some time off after more than a year of promotions, cfs, radios, variety shows and musicals. Was it so hard to just give her some space with her family?

I really hope she enjoyed her trip in sg despite all those idiots making it difficult for her and her family. If none of the 9 girls ever goes to sg for a holiday anymore, we all know why.

P.S: Now people probably will say I would do the same if I was in front of her but sorry, the most I would do is take pictures from far WITHOUT FLASH. I know better than to ruin the chances of her telling the other 8 that she had a good time here with her family.

P.P.S: I know I shouldn't get so worked up, it's not like I know her personally but I can't help it.

P.P.P.S: Got so worked up that I didn't even mention that I was talking about Tae Yeon visiting Singapore these 2 days.

Phew..

2010-05-28T02:20:00.004+08:00

So my situation isn't so bad after all... a big misunderstanding leading me to some over-reacting. Things are still bad though, just not to the extend of destroying my near-future... I'm just so thankful that the light is starting to shine brighter now.

I'm still hoping that everything else goes well though, my convo.. is VERY important to me not because I'm graduating... but because my parents practically waited for this for so long... I've already delayed it by a year... this MUST happen or else I will never forgive myself for disappointing my parents.

I think I should start feeling grateful for every good thing that happens from now on.. even the small things. To be hammered repeatedly by bad things the past few days has just made me realized that life is really unpredictable, mistakes and bad luck are inevitable.

Some times I forget my parents drop by my blog from time to time... though I should refrain myself from blogging about bad things.... but it's pretty inevitable sometimes.. I need a place to release all these shit and I feel comfortable writing here... (Don't worry dad, not many people reads my blog anyway.. Only my closest friends do, I got nothing to hide from them)

By the way, to those few that reads.. Sorry for worrying you. Everything SHOULD be fine. Thanks for caring. =)

P.S: ESPN got back to me on my job application, asked me to answer a few essay like questions via email. They probably send the email to many other applicants but at least there's progress instead of having no news like my other applications. Really hope this go through, I think I'll enjoy doing research/writing on sports rather than engineering.

Praying for a better tomorrow..

2010-05-27T13:28:00.002+08:00

It's been pretty tiring emotionally for me the past few days. So many bad news and things just rushed into my life that I could barely hold myself together. My mind is starting to clear now and I'm just hoping everything will just turn for the good. I guess the movie outing with my friends yesterday did help me calm down a bit. (Just when I thought things are getting better, my mom told me that a relative of mind passed away this morning.. Rest in Peace dear uncle, little time and words were shared between us but those little things will always be remembered)

I'm starting to see light shining on my immigration problems but nothing is confirmed until those ICA people actually reply my email. ITcare people in NUS too better reset my password ASAP because i need to change my mailing address and my passport number in MYISIS.

Somehow got a spot in Daily K-pop News' website as an editor. Wasn't really thinking when I sent in my application. Oh well, since I'm practically checking kpop news everytime I get online, I guess posting and editing a bit of news wouldn't be so bad. It's not like I have anything better to do. Thinking of going back to writing/proof-reading for e-sports too, not sure whether Flash Gaming (formerly Gameworkssg) will be willing to take me back after I abandoned them during my exam periods.. LOL

Guess I'll just concentrate on getting my admin stuff with ICA settled first.

P.S: Bangkok concert postponed.... I don't know how to break the news to my parents after asking them to book the tickets 1 month ago (nobody was injured or dead back then). Kinda hard to break another bad news to them after the immigration incident.

Breaking down....

2010-05-25T13:39:00.002+08:00

I thought being jobless for half a year was bad... I thought free loading of my parents money for so long was bad.... I never thought it could get any worst... but it just did....

Have you ever had your plans for your whole year (and maybe more) crash down in 1 day just because 1 of VERY stupid mistake?

I'm not going to elaborate yet because I'm REALLY not in the mood... but I just felt like writing something because if I kept everything inside me I would just die anytime...

Like seriously, everything I have been picturing/thinking of for the past few months has just literally disintegrated... it's painful... very painful... God help me...

Lee Eun Mi - I have a lover

2010-05-12T03:06:00.003+08:00

Pretty emotional song. Listened to the Tae Yeon live version and fell in love with her voice. I first heard Taengoo singing it way back before I learned Korean and back then I never thought of searching up the lyrics for the song. Now that I have a bit of the basics in me, I was able to catch a little of what the lyrics is about and felt something for the song. So I went to search for the exact translation and here is what I got.

I Have a Lover Lyrics (Translated from Korean)

“Are you still alone?” you asked me
And I just laughed
“I am loving someone,
I have someone to love”

You seem to worry about me,
Telling me there is someone
that you would like me to meet
Do you know that
I already have a great lover?
Someone I cherish so much that I have to hide

That person, only I can see him
He is only visible to my eyes
His name will be sealed in my lips forever
Only the tears that fill my eyes know
That the person is you

I don’t want to have him
I don’t want to be greedy
I just want to love him

Do you know that
I already have a great lover?
Someone I cherish so much that I have to hide

That person, only I can see him
He is only visible to my eyes
His name will be sealed in my lips forever
Only the tears that fill my eyes know
That the person is you

You see now.. I am not alone
So don’t worry about me so much
Someday, I’ll introduce him to you
Can you hear the words of the tears that fill my eyes?
They say that that person is you

Amazing right? It's sad that songs with meaningful lyrics like this are slowly disappearing. Here's the video of Tae Yeon's version on Chin Chin. It's without the background music because it's a radio broadcast and the DJ's in the broadcast area will only be able to hear what's broad casted through the headphones. This is from a staff cam from inside the broadcast area so what you're hearing is purely her voice with no other add ons. Another thing to point out is that she was asked to sing spontaneously without preparations. Amazing =)

CN Blue - Love Light

2010-05-11T03:47:00.003+08:00

Have you ever had this feeling that something you hope does not happen is happening but you're not sure that it's happening? Confusing? lol

Well lets put it this way, there's this scenario that you really hope that will not happen. Then you have this gut feeling that it's going to happen or is already happening. Obviously you'd be curious to know whether this particular scenario is really happening or not but since you'll be heartbroken if it's really happening, you hesitate to investigate further.

So basically it arrives to a situation where apart of you is curious on whether this scenario is happening or not but at the same time another part of you is scared of finding out because if it's really happening you're gonna get an emotional breakdown.

Ok.... I hope I got everyone reading this confused cause I myself am confused by it.. HAHA!

Kim Tae Woo - 사랑비

2010-05-02T11:54:00.001+08:00

There are some performances that you can never get tired off. This is one of those performances that I'll still be loving 10 years down the road. Had always loved Kim Tae Woo's voice, throw Seo Hyun in with the piano and the orchestra background and you'll get the best live performance of Love Rain.

I realize my embedded youtube videos are always cut at the side.. It has something to do with the layout of the blog but I'm just too lazy to care =p

Kim Tae Woo - 빗물이 내려서

2010-05-02T05:55:00.003+08:00

Tried to sleep but was tossing and turning on the bed... Couldn't help but think about how useless my job hunt has been so far. It's been what? 5 months? I don't know but it's a long time and so far I've had only 1 interview which ended up in disaster. As time passes my expected salary has slowly been slowly decreasing... With the conditions for PR changing, it kinda sucks now to have a low pay.

A friend of mine recommended that I worked for Garena. It's a company that runs a gaming platform that connects people around the world forming a giant gaming hub. It's still a small company but it's been steadily growing. I've been involved with Garena ever since it the platform started and it's only been a few years since the platform was open to public.

Hmm.. work for Garena? Interesting.... low pay... but interesting.....

PS. Personal Taste is fantastic, all Son Ye Jin fans should watch it. It's funny, it's sweet and the actors are great. Not to mention having a great OST.

Brief visit back home

2010-04-25T15:09:00.002+08:00

Few days back I made a sudden decision to come back to Malaysia for the weekends. I didn't regret coming back though, the moment I reached back to my room I already felt very comfortable. Slept really well the first night I was back.

Had bah kut teh yesterday for lunch. It's just a random store outside my house but nevertheless it's still better than anything you can find in Singapore.. LOL.. Then went off for a mini gathering with my secondary school mates. 9 of us met it (ahh 9, such a wonderful number!) at a Korean restaurant called Woo Ga Chon at Sunway Mentari. Was my first time trying Korean food despite being addicted to the culture for so long.

Since it was the first for most of us, we decided to order a lot of things in small portions so that we can have more variety of food to try. Tried nearly everything I wanted (listing everything out will be a hassle, yeah I'm lazy =p) but didn't manage to try the dukkbokgi because we were too full. Like any other Korean restaurants, the side dishes were refillable so we were practically spamming the waiters for the tofu and mash potatoes that all of us found to be very good. The waiters were a bit blur though, we asked for 4 servings of tofu and they came with 2. We had to keep ordering because they always brought half of what we ordered. My friends didn't like the kimchi though, I kinda liked it. Finished 2 plates of kimchi (the plates of side dishes are very small) all by myself. The meal ended with complimentary watermelons and a cup of sikhye (cold sweet rice drink) from the restaurant.

Will definitely go back though, maybe I should convince my family to go have a try. The price wasn't all that bad and the food was pretty good too, RM28 per person for that amount of food plus the unlimited ban chan (side dishes) is pretty reasonable to me. I may just drop by and have a serving of bbq sam gyup sal alone when I feel like it too =D.

Oh, 1 of the reasons we gathered was to celebrate the birthdays of the April babies (me me me!). 3 of us present that day were born in the month of April. Joyce bought cupcakes with letters on it so we could spell our names using the cupcakes. The cupcakes were great, icing was very sweet but was balanced with the mild taste of the cake. If I wasn't so full I would have eaten 2 =(

After dinner everybody went off to do their own things, me and Ed went off to meet Kev at a mamak. We were supposed to sit for a drink but me and Ed were too full to even drink so we decided to just drop by at FTZ for a little tar kei-ing session. Had fun, went back and once again had a very nice sleep.

Going for Tenji buffet tomorrow! Sigh my parents... 1 moment they're calling me fat, the next moment they tell me they booked a table for buffet LOL.

Will be back in Singapore on Tuesday though... not looking forward to it... NOT AT ALL!

=DDDD

2010-04-21T04:55:00.003+08:00

Met up with a big group of NUS people yesterday at Fortune International Buffet for a gathering cum April birthday celebration. I think the food there is really good, the soups for the steamboat was pretty good (though I didn't spend much time on it) and the meat selection for bbq was fantastic. I'm sure everyone agreed that the satay we bbq ourselves that night was the best we can ever find in Singapore.

Good food is one thing but what's important is the people we're sharing it with. Most of us gathered there are final year students and are all just 2 or 3 weeks away from ending their university life. A few other "older" graduated people made up the numbers for the night. You can say all of us had spent our whole Singapore lives knowing each other. It's been a long 4 years for most of them (5 for some of us) and they've all finally coming to a new transition period of their lives.

I think it's safe to say that all of us enjoyed the night. Thank you all for the bag, I've been using my old one for like 4 years now.. haha... and the 2 cards.. lol, I would never had expected any of you to get them for me. Really, thank you.

It's a bit early but Happy birthday to Bobo and Pei Suen too, hope you guys liked your presents as much as I liked mine. =)

To those who didn't make it, it's alright.. we still love you all!

Take care and good luck for your final exams. It's the very last mountain you guys will climb before entering a whole new world. Gambateh! Hwaiting! Jia You!

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Sorry, I'm going into fanboi mode right now so you guys can just skip the rest of the post.

For those who don't know, Girls' Generation will have a concert on the 24th of July in Bangkok in conjunction with their 1st Asia tour! and my parents agreed to let me and my sister go to the concert! Everything was confirmed today, flights, hotels, concert tickets! I'm just so happy at the thought of it. To be able to see them live! ARGH!!

I think I've successfully convert my family into a Korean loving family. Before this I had to fight to turn the channel to KBS but now it's on KBS majority of the time even when I'm not home. I'm really surprised they let me and my sis go watch the concert though, I always had this feeling that my parents never liked the idea of spending money for concerts and original stuff. The fact that they just said okay was just wow.

I've always had a soft spot for Into The New World. The fact that it's their debut song, the fact that the girls put in so much effort to release it, the fact that the choreo for that song is the best I've seen so far, the fact that they were all so in sync whenever they're dancing to it, the fact that their vocals were nicely portrayed in it, the fact that all 9 members had a solo part, and finally the fact that the song tells of stepping out into a new world together. To be able to see it live...... =)

One of their earliest ITNW performance. Quality pretty bad but it's the best video to watch them doing the full dance without the camera man doing some fancy zooming in and out.

Short Message

2010-04-11T05:57:00.002+08:00

I love Messi.. nuff said.

Elaborating will take me hours and I'm not going to do it. I'm sure many people know why anyway. =)

random.. ignore me =)

2010-03-26T19:30:00.002+08:00

Shining Inheritance (Y)

God of Study (Y)

Sorry, side tracks from my stupid life =)

Untouchable ft. Narsha - 가슴에 살아

2010-03-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

Had my first interview at TECH semiconductor today. Was super nervous, everything went by so fast I didn't even remember what was I asked and what did I answer. I only remembered the interviewer asking me on how to calculate the volumetric flow rate of a fluid.... OMG LAR!! SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION! I HAD TO GO BLANK AT THE FREAKING MOMENT!! The moment I left the building it just popped into my mind once again... Sian... my brain just had to take a 30 minute break at the wrong moment.

There's supposedly to be another 3 more rounds of interview. I'm not sure whether I'll be called back or not so it's kind of sad. I hate this waiting game where you wait for replies but will only get it if you are shortlisted. I just wished they will let you know if you are rejected. Makes the wait so much less complicated.

I think I got to work on my confidence level, my grades has been crushing my confidence sem after sem I kind of feel very small now when people talk about achievements or results.

Besides the job hunt, accommodation problem is another thing that is going to be a problem. I'm having problem finding prospectives house mates. Everybody either answer's not sure or just plainly ignores me. I can really foresee hiding myself in a small room alone with people I don't know in the unit. My friend offered me a place in Bedok, which is towards the east side. It'll probably be quite a distance to my prospective work places but at least I'm wont be staying alone. The problem is they will need to move in on May and my current contract ends at the end of June. That means I'll have to pay 2 side's rent for 2 months which is pretty painful since I haven't even confirm on my job yet. My friend offered to absorb 1 month but it's still something I have to think about.

Aih, all I can do is pray for everything to fall in place.. my job.. accommodation...... my life...

2AM - I Did Wrong

2010-03-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

Went to uni to get an official copy of my transcript today. Can't believe they actually charge SGD10.70 for 2 pieces of paper that shows all my shitty grades for the past 4 and a half years. That's like nearly RM25 for 2 papers =.= . Such a good way to earn money.

Feeling a bit lethargic nowadays, must be the lack of exercise. Thinking of going for daily cycling sessions though. Gotta get my bike serviced before I do that. Hopefully there's soccer this weekend, everybody's so busy now that the end of the sem is approaching.

No luck in job-hunting so far, I think I may actually end up applying to be a teacher. It's not something I loathe and I think I'll enjoy it more than being an engineer. Though it feels like all those years of suffering for my Engineering degree will go to waste if I just end up being a teacher. Ahh... I'll give it some more thought in the next few days.

Computer has been really sluggish lately. Guess it's time to reformat but I'm just too lazy to do it. Guess I'll bear with it until I can't take it anymore.

Hyuna - Change

2010-03-11T01:34:00.003+08:00

Nice, a Yoona photocard in my Oh! album. Gonna carry it around in my wallet from now on. =DD

Weather's pretty nasty here.. it's hot and humid... damn uncomfortable..

You always have someone on your mind. It'll never be me right?

Of bicycles and butts..

2010-03-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

Went for a very refreshing night cycling with the MSL group yesterday night. The event was scheduled from 8pm to 8am but there was a lot of buffer time given in between. I would say we cycled close to 9 hours with two 30-60 mins break in between.

Basically we cycled around the east side of Singapore starting and ending at ECP. Changi Point and a kopitiam in Tampines were 2 of our main rest stops along the route. Nevertheless we managed to stop at various places for awhile to snap some pictures. (Pictures in facebook)

I thoroughly enjoyed our journey because it's been awhile since I've cycled with the wind blowing at your face. The air was pretty fresh as we were mostly closed to the sea. I've been having this bad breathing problem with my nose recently and I cant remember when was the last time my nose was so clear for so long. The environment plus the great company equals happy times.

Happiness aside, cycling for such a long distance and in continuous hours was definitely painful to all of us. Sitting on the bicycle chair for so long is not a joke, I knew my butt would hurt so to prevent it from dying too fast I shifted my body weight towards my hands instead. LOL I ended the journey with not only a pain in the ass but my palms were also hurting badly.

Everything felt better after I woke up from my sleep though, pretty surprised at the rate of recovery. I expected to be stuck in bed because of pain but it isn't really that bad.

Glad I came back in time for the event. =)

혹시 같은 맘 일까 봐

나와 같은 맘 일까 봐
또 다시 기대하고 또 기다리죠
사랑 앞에서 나 오늘도
바보처럼

그대 앞에 또 서성이죠
바보처럼

Kim Jong Kook - Don't be good to me

Of 2PM, JYP and Jaebum

2010-02-27T03:57:00.002+08:00

I never really wanted to write this shit on my blog but it's bothering me and I guess writing it is the best way to get it of my mind.

Now this 2PM and losing their leader fiasco is really getting out of hand. All parties involved in this crappy saga are playing their cards so badly that it's making everything worst.

Basically, everything started with Park Jaebum's unofficial "withdrawal" from 2PM last year due to words he posted on his myspace which were seen as unacceptable by the netizens. Once the fire from the netizens started to die down, everybody thought Jaebum would be allowed to come back to the group. All of a sudden, JYP released an official news saying that Jaebum has officially terminated his contract and has thus withdrawed from 2PM for good. Reason given? It seemed that Jaebum was involved in a "personal mistake" that was so bad even his former members decided it was hard for him to come back into the group.

Fans started to split into a few factions. Some blaming JYP for creating lies and rumours while the others are blaming the other 6 members for not supporting their leader. Personally? I don't think it's write to blame either JYP or the other 6 members yet. Why? These fans and as a matter of fact nearly everyone, does not know what's really going on behind all these crap. How sure are they that JYP is lying? Do they even know what the "personal mistake" made by Jaebum was? So far rumours about drug abuse and causing pregnancy are circulating but there isn't any solid truth on what happened.

1 saved 6? What on earth did Jaebum do the save the other 6 members may I ask? Apparently he left last year because he didn't want the swarm of angry netizens to "hurt" the other members but sorry dude, it was his own mistake that made people angry. As I remembered, he didn't leave to save the group but he left because of his own mistake. He left to save himself so what rubbish is 1 person saved 6?

So now the fans are divided, crying and protesting but none of them are really thinking or trying to see the bigger picture. They're all blinded by their "love" for their idols that it's easy to put the blame on others when maybe he himself deserved this shit.

Jaebum himself is not making things better for everyone. Why keep silent? He's no longer under contract and is free to speak to the public. Shouldn't he give an explanation on what's going on? Or did he do something so bad that he himself is ashamed to speak to the fans? Or is he keeping quiet to "protect" JYP and his ex-members? Full of shit if you ask me. How is keeping quiet and letting rumours spread gonna help anything?

Then there's their managing company JYPE. Frankly speaking, I think JYP has already done what they're supposed to do. They're organizing a Q&A between the remaining 6 members and the fans. They've released as much information as they should (Revealing the "personal mistake" made by Jay will IMO be too much since it's personal and may destroy Jay's image). So basically, if the company is telling the truth, they've already tried to handle the situation to the best of their abilities.

All in all, I feel the fans needs to ask the right questions and to the right people. Jay himself should be pressured to tell the truth, not the other 6 members or the company. If JYP is really all lies and bullshit, then shouldn't Jay reveal the truth? Is he afraid that the other members of 2PM will lose their careers if the truth is revealed?

I think fans forget that groups losing their managing companies does not mean it's the end of the road for them. Shinhwa left SME and have still been strong in the music industry. Members of GOD who left JYPE are also doing pretty well in their own right.

Frankly speaking, I don't really care what happens to 2PM. I've never been a fan of their music because they focus too much on stage choreo instead of vocals. I just hope 2AM is not affected by all these bullshit.

2AM - This Song

2010-02-13T03:13:00.002+08:00

I love 2AM. Those boys may be lacking in the looks department (Jo Kwon and Changmin are not exactly handsome) but they make it up with amazing vocals.

Going back to Kampar, Perak tomorrow for CNY. Meeting up with my dad's side of the family is good and all but I'm really not looking forward to sleeping there. The weather is really hot the past few days and the place has no air-con! Apart from that, I'm really looking forward to the food and angpaos and food. I think this CNY will be a good one for me because I finally have chance to meet up with many of my friends from college and secondary school. Ever since I went to Singapore, I've never had the chance to meet up with all of my friends during CNY because the holidays are always too short. By the time I come back from my hometown I already have to go back to Singapore. I'm gonna enjoy this while I can, I doubt I'll have the chance once I start working.

Something really funny happened today, not going to elaborate but let's say I made a fool of myself LOL. It's funny how life turns out to be. One day we're all going to look back at the pass and laugh at ourselves for the things we've done. =D

PS: Kara's teaser for their comeback song "Lupin" is looking good. Will they give SNSD a tough fight?

PSS: Sunny performed with the girls on Music Bank today eventhough she was hospitalized for fatigue a few days ago. Poor girl, SME is really overworking their artists.

2AM - Confession of a Friend

2010-02-07T13:41:00.003+08:00

Kayaking yesterday was good... Went out the whole day from morning all the way to the night.. I guess it's good to spend time away from my computer for 1 whole day.. Keeps the mind fresh, the only problem is a fresh mind makes you think a lot. lol

Reach home around 12am, played a lame game of Dota after showering and went to bed after that.. It's been so long since I've had a such a good sleep. Slept all the way till the next morning and woke up late for futsal. lol, must have been really tired.. I've rarely had problem waking up for something I want to do even if I've slept for only a few hours... guess the whole day out really took the life out of my already lifeless body...

Been listening to 2AM (when I'm not listening to SNSD =p), great voices.. lovely music.. their songs are all sad love songs though.. haha.

There's this bond that connects both of us. It's as if there is an unbreakable string between us. You holding it with your hand while the string is deeply attached to my heart. At times you will pull the string softly, slowly luring me closer to you but once I get too close you will push me away so hard until I am all the way at the end of the string. When my heart is hanging at the end of the string.. it hurts so bad.... it's as if the whole world is pulling at my heart trying to remove it from my very body. Then you start tugging at the string again softly as if asking me to go back.. and once again you push me back to the end...

I've tried to let go but I can't. The string is embedded to deeply into my heart... The only way to end this pain is for you to let me go.... Please let me go... Release that string from your hand, throw it into the sea for all I care... Just please... let me go...

Girls' Generation - Oh!

2010-02-05T02:56:00.002+08:00

Been kinda neglecting my blog because I write stuff on twitter now. It's so easy in twitter, short and simple compared to here where I feel obliged to write something longer as there is no word limit.

Back in Singapore for a week to settle my stuff. Every thing is more or less done now. Will be going back to Malaysia this coming Monday!

Went to NUS career fair today, submitted quite a few of my resumes. I doubt the bigger more establish companies will short-list me though, my resume ain't exactly attractive. Engineering companies aside, what caught my attention was the Sentosa Resort booth. Seems they're taking in quite a number of people for the casino and working as a dealer/croupier would definitely be interesting. Problem is it's shift work and working days may include public holidays and weekend. Oh well, I'll just send in my application just for fun.

Kayaking on Saturday with MSL! The last time I kayaked was all the back in Langkawi with the Taylors gang. Gila lama tu.. Hope the weather doesn't screw up though...

Final note, the new album for SNSD? Dae Bak!! Topping charts just moments after being released online. All 9 new songs has made it into various online Korean charts! Frankly speaking, their main song in the album "Oh!" is not as good as "Gee" but then again, "Gee" set a bar so high that it'll take something very special to surpass. Apart from that, it's still addictive and like many other Korean songs, has the ability to make you feel "man this song sucks" the first time you listen to it BUT it get's stuck in your head the next few times you hear it. Overall, the album consist of 11 songs. 8 newly released songs + a song they sang in a drama OST + 2 of their songs that dominated 2009 (Gee and Tell Me Your Wish). Worth every cent for the original CD no?

Support originals! To hell with piracy! XD

bad luck..

2010-01-14T15:04:00.002+08:00

Damn.. I really think this year is not going to be a good one. My luck this month is totally terrible. Been playing poker outside with my friends and on Facebook quite often recently and my luck is just unbelievable. Most of my hands are always unsuited cards of 2 and 7, 2 and 8, 3 and J... Cards that are impossible to follow unless you're trying to bluff. Even when I get a good hand like pockets or a straights on the flop I'll lose to a bigger hand. I've lost count on how many times my straights lost to flushes. There was even a game where I had full house on the flop but went on to lose to a 4 of a kind. Gotta minimize my gambling this year... =(

We've finished New Super Mario on Wii! Spent quite a few nights after dinner in Kenneth's house to finish the game. A damn fun game, Wii owners should try it out! It's easier to beat the game with only 2 people as stages may get a bit complicated when 4 are playing but where's the fun in easy games? =D

Brown Eyed Girls - Sign

2010-01-07T06:18:00.002+08:00

Ahh... looks like my year is not starting really well for me. No luck with job applications and been dead bored here at home. The connection sucks during the afternoons and loading a short MV could take 10 mins.

Somebody save me from this pointless days that I'm going through~~~

Signing off with the lamest thing I've heard since 2010 started:
"What do you call a door seller? Sailor Moon!"
Goo Hara's (Kara) Yoochiri Immature Joke Episode 8 #1

Don't understand it? Try saying it in Chinese or Korean! XD

2009 to 2010

2010-01-04T02:22:00.003+08:00

So 2009 has finally ended. I would say that 2009 was neither particularly bad nor good. There were many goods and bads that happened through out the year but the most notable thing was me failing "Colors and Vision" which inevitably led me to another semester in NUS. Then again, it was because of me repeating 1 sem that I was able to take Korean 1 which turned out to be 1 of my most enjoyable modules in NUS (didn't get a good grade though).

2009 was also the year that I got into the Korean craze. It was early this year when I first came upon Girls' Generation's Gee and believe it or not, I actually thought it was annoying but the pretty girls from the group caught my eyes leading me to searching more videos of them. Watched their debut single Into The New World and got hook instantly. The more songs I listen to, the more I got addicted to the girls. Which in turn led me to watching every single variety show and dramas that the girls appeared on. One thing led to another and I got hooked on many Korean variety shows and dramas even if the girls are not in. From the girls, I moved on to the other artists and I found myself drawn to Korean music. Doesn't matter whether it's the hot girl groups or the macho guy groups, I love their music and their stage performances.

So how did I spend my last day of 2009?
I went out with the same usual gang that I hang out with to The Curve! Went to Tony Roma's for dinner. Never expected it to be so expensive, caused us 80 bucks per person and there wasn't even any pork ribs. Food wasn't bad but I wouldn't say its very good either. Given a choice, I would not choose to go back to Tony Roma's in Malaysia anymore but I'm still aiming for the pork ribs in Singapore. Watched Sherlock Holmes after dinner. The movie finished nicely at 11.45pm giving us 15 minutes to walk out to watch the fireworks. Fireworks this year wasn't that spectacular but then again, I never did enjoyed fireworks. It always looked the same to me. I guess the highlight for the night was the foam spray. I've always been safe from foam during every countdown but this year the people were merciless. So many people were spraying, it looked like it was snowing the whole time we were out there. To a certain extent, watching white stuff flying down was a pretty nice sight =) Left The Curve right after the fireworks ended and as expected, we were stuck in the jam for about an hour. Ended our night yam cha-ing in a mamak like we always do after every event.

New years day?
Spent the whole afternoon watching Full House with my family and then went out for dinner with the same gang again. Dinner was at some restaurant in Kuchai Lama. Food wasn't very good and was a bit pricy too. 30 bucks per person. Headed off to Kenneth's place to wii after dinner. Played a 4 player Super Mario and had loads of fun. We laughed so much till our heads and stomache started to ache from the laughing. Haven't laughed so much in awhile. Love the Wii, it's probably the only game console that is able to give such enjoyable times to a group of people.

Kim Yoo Jin / UEE

2009-12-28T17:40:00.003+08:00

This has to be the hottest picture of After School's UEE (yes, her stage name is UEE, said out as yui) available now on. =D

And so it ends...

2009-12-23T04:00:00.002+08:00

Got our results today, everyone was making a big fuss about it and were practically staring at the screen spamming the login button but I couldn't really care. It gets tiring you know to wait in front of the screen till the very second it is released and then try to spam your way through the heavy traffic because everybody else is trying to log on. I checked 2 hours after it was released and managed to login with only 1 try. Everyone was complaining about the shitty system but if they were just a little less kiasu (like me!) nobody would have burned and fuses trying to check their results. To NUS defence, I think they did a good job with the new ISIS system. Practically everything you need to know is available in there. It's so easy for those kids nowadays and yet they're complaining.

My results? Lets just say it was good enough to end my terrible journey of studying in NUS. Pretty satisfied with my econs but was a bit dissappointed with my Korean. I could have gotten a better grade if I didn't panic during the oral and well to be honest, our play didn't come out well too. No props, no usage of the projector, no audio, no costume... definitely could have done better. Haven't tell my parents though, but they'll probably find out after reading this =p

Anyway, everything is done.. It's all over. Actively looking for jobs now. Been sending out some application the past few days and just have to pray hard something comes my way.

I've got nothing to do this Christmas (eve). Our annual Christmas barbeque was held a few days ago because some of them couldn't make it on the 24th. Any ideas on what to do?

9

2009-12-21T01:54:00.003+08:00

Ahh... I should be updating but I'm really too lazy to write.. there's a lot in my mind and writing them out in details will mean another long wall of text so here's a summary of what's in my mind.

1) Post-Bangkok: Went to Bangkok with my family few days back. Followed a tour so everything was planned out and we just had to follow. It was ok, not my best trip but quite fun. Didn't shop much, I hate to shop.

2) Movies:
2012 - sucky plot, sucky directing, sucky writing, not bad effects
Ninja Assassin - pretty cool fight scenes, sucky plot/directing/writing
Storm warriors - TERRIBLE, too many slow mo fight scenes, disgusting plot/writing/directing
Avatar - Great but not perfect, beautiful background, solid directing, plot and characters looks recycled and some doubtful writing but thats only to over-critical people like me, if watch please watch in 3D, no 3D = stupid you.

3) Football - Benitez will get sacked soon. Nuff said

4)Kpop - Very into After School's "Because of You" now. Without a doubt it will dominate Kcharts for many weeks to come. T-ara's Bo peep is quite funny too, it's not a great song but the repeating bo peep bo peep bo peep is definitely addictive.

5) Girls' Generation/SNSD/So Nyuh Shi Dae - Am really regretting not being in Korea to see the girls' first ever solo concert. According to other Sone's that were present, the girls were epic. All 9 of the girls shined and delivered flawlessly. With that said, if time permits, I'll definitely be going to Bangkok to watch them. Hope to gather other SG sones to tag along. I'm such a fanboy but that's not something I'm embarassed about. I love the girls =)

Kat rumah

2009-12-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

Ok, so I've been neglegting the blog since my exams were over so here's another wall of text.

I've actually wanted to write on many things for the past month but was just too lazy to actually think of the content and structure of the stuff I want to write. I'm actually quite particular about the grammar and spelling of the stuff I write here because I believe it helps keep my English from going rusty.

Firstly, I wanted to write about the big controversy going on between SM Entertainment and Mnet in Korea but that was during my exam period and I really didn't have time to look up on more facts to back up my knowledge of the controversy. I have all the time I need now but I figure there's no point writing an outdated article about the entertainment industry in Korea when everybody that's reading this crap is not interested.

Then there's the post-exam summary on how I did for my Macro. To keep it short, let's just say my fate is decided entirely on the bell-curve now. I've done what I could and I'll just have to wait till the end of this month to see how well/bad I did for the paper.

Ahh, jobs... Been looking at the job market throught JobsDB and I'm seeing a lot of job openings for Engineers but the thing is most of then are looking for experienced engineers or diploma graduates. Have already send in applications to those few that were looking for fresh degree graduates. Hope I get some good news by end of this year.

Going to Bangkok on the 13th. I'm not really into shopping and since we're following a tour, I guess we're gonna be moving from shopping spots to popular landmarks to shopping spots so I'm not particularly excited about that. However it'll be good to spend time with my family on a holiday. =)
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The grand finals for SMM Grand Dota Tournament (SGNDT) was held in Melaka last week. For those who don't know, SGNDT is probably the world's biggest Dota LAN tournament in the world with a total prize value of RM135,000. Malaysian teams are required to participate in state qualifiers for places in the grand finals and big teams from around the world were invited to take part in the lucrative event.

China turned out to be the biggest winners of this year's tournament taking first, second and third place with all top 3 teams drafting and playing amazingly well. I watched a few games live via GGTV streams and really thought Kingsurf (Malaysia) had a big chance of taking home gold because of Yamateh's godly performance and Chuan's huge improvements from the past but they lost out to eventual champions sGty in a great game that lasted more than 70 minutes. The game was pretty close and Kingsurf looked to have won the game when Papaxiong stold the opponents relic while they were leading in kills and towers but the Chinese continued playing with great determination and eventually won the game.

After watching a few of the replays of the teams from China, I realized that the Chinese teams are actually very smart and it's no wonder that they took home the top 3 prizes. Their drafted well and stuck to the plan no matter what happened without losing confidence eventhough being down on kills early. Europeans may complain that the way the Chinese (or to some extent, Asians) played were purely based on farming and delaying the game till their DPS is buffed enough to win the game, but it's undeniable that it's the best and most effected way to win a game.

However, the Chinese took farming to a whole new level. It's normal to have 1 player being able to farm incredibly well in a team but having 3 players farming at the same time and all 3 of them are coming out with items at incredible speed is just incredible. The whole team is working as a whole, and everyone is playing their roles to perfection. In the Finals, there was actually fierce 5v5 battle happened in the middle lane and after every hero has spammed EVERY spell and ulti they have, nobody died. Now it may seem like nothing to most people but to us we see it as 10 very smart players in a very skillful and intelligent engagement.

I was disappointed at Kingsurf's lost because Yamateh really played very well through out the tournament but I can't deny that the Chinese teams deserved the top places.

sikit lagi...

2009-11-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

Ahh... it's around 12 hours to THE paper.. THE paper that may very well be my LAST paper as an undergraduate or it could also be the paper that will condemn me to another module in NUS...

I've studying A LOT lately and if I was taking this paper 1 or 2 years back I would be pretty damn confident of getting a respectable grade.... but lets be honest, I'm not exactly very bright and I'm studying in a freaking competitive university. As the Chinese saying goes, "After seeing a ghost, it is obvious to be afraid of the dark". I've failed before in this place and I'm REALLY REALLY scared of failing another time.... It's already embarrassing enough to be telling people I'm in my 9th sem because I wasn't able to complete my studies in the normal 8 sems. Adding another sem to that is really beyond my comprehension...

With that said, I'm nervous and scared of the paper but am also freaking excited and happy that its possibly the end..... I don't think I can sleep tonight.. =(

Webcasts...........

2009-11-16T13:57:00.004+08:00

Going through all 12 webcast lectures again... damn boring lar.......... why the hell did I end up with macro instead of micro!! =.=

On a happier thought, exactly 7 more days till my last paper!! Weeeeeeee

Family is going to Bangkok on the 16th or 17th... Not very excited though, we should be in Korea instead.. Can't believe I'm gonna miss 소녀시대's very first solo concert.... To make things worst, the girls will be going to Bangkok sometime in January... WHY CAN'T WE GO TO BANGKOK THEN!?!? RAWR!!

Depending on the time and price of tickets I may consider going to Bangkok again by myself or maybe with some of the soshified people to catch the concert. Lets pray that I will get to see them live!

1 week more to go....

2009-11-14T13:49:00.006+08:00

Kinda screwed up my oral on Tuesday. The room was so cold and I was pretty damn nervous I was shivering through out the whole session. I was shivering so badly, my partner told me she could feel me shivering in the room. Regretted not bringing a jacket sia..

It was bad but after it was over, I guess we all felt like a heavy blanket has been lifted up from our hearts. We were allowed to go home after finishing our turns for the oral but it's nice to see that most of us stayed back and waited for everyone to finish. Took some pictures after everyone was done. Now I don't normally post up pictures but that's because I don't normally have pictures to put up. Since they send it straight to us on email....

Before the teachers came out

With our teachers

Some of us proceeded to Burger King for dinner and had a good chat. It's funny how we could speak Korean so much more fluently AFTER the oral test. lol

With Ruth, taken in BK using Jian Hua's LG Crystal

The LG Crystal is so damn sexy.. regretted I didn't wait for it to come out before renewing my line.. but then again.. I can't afford it also.. The functions may not be as good as an Iphone but its definitely more attractive. Aih.. lets hope I win the 50k from Mcds so I can get one. =D

The past few days after finishing Korean was spent by watching dramas.. Been watching You're Beautiful and it's a really fun drama to watch. It's like a combination of Coffee Prince and Boys Over Flowers. Not perfect acting but great chemistry between the casts and a nice OST. Luckily it's currently still airing and only 12 episodes is out so I have to wait till next week to watch episode 13 and 14. Gives me time to study for my last module.

Gonna spend the next few days webcasting macro... aih...

The End

2009-11-10T04:25:00.002+08:00

I'm coming to the end of my journey here in NUS. Exactly 2 more weeks and I'm done with the terrible shits of exams, assignments and CAs.

Studying the past few days was pretty productive. I stopped Dotaing for 5 days straight now and it really frees up a lot of time. Of course I'm still watching my shows and hang around in Facebook but removing dota from my life resulted in lots of free time. Then again, I'm not gonna do very well for my 2 modules.

I know I did lots of mistakes in today's Korean test and I'm really nervous about the skit and oral tomorrow. I never liked oral, I've always had trouble with oral tests even if it's English. Thinking about oral reminds me of 1 of my oral tests way back in secondary or primary school, can't really remember when. It was a Malay oral test and I was pretty damn nervous. The moment I sat down in front of my teacher, I saw the word "FAIL" right in front of me. After looking properly, it was actually a file and file is spelt as "fail" in Malay. LoL, bad sign.

I'll be done with Korean the moment the oral test is over tomorrow. Then I'll be left with Macroeconomics. Damn Macro is a stupid module... It started out ok but then it starts getting confusing towards the end. I haven't touched the last few lectures of the module but I have a little less than 2 weeks to focus solely on Macro. Hopefully I'll get enough to pass the module. Even a D would be enough, just don't screw me and get me an F.

안녕......

2009-11-04T13:59:00.002+08:00

소녀, 사랑을 만나다 - K.Will with 소녀시대 티파니

I just love this song... I felt our dear Tiffany did a much better job here compared to her own single "By Myself". It felt as though she was trying to hard in By Myself but in this song she's just beautiful. K. Will's dreamy vocals helped a lot too though =p

Just finished my last Korean tutorial class yesterday and I felt terrible after class. The moment 박지영(I think it's spelt this way =p) 선생님 told us that it was the final tutorial class with her and thank us for the fun she had through the semester, a rush of sadness and regret came to me. It's really sad for it to end so quickly. Korean tutorials were probably the only tutorials where I enjoyed myself in NUS. I love our 선생님 and the other students in the class. It was a short time and if you think about it we've never really done much but you can't deny that there's a certain bond created from the little interactions we had in class.

I regret not being able to get closer to my classmates. I'm kind of an introvert and it takes time for me to get comfortable in conversing with new people. Obviously I took too long to get comfortable and before I knew it, the semester is ending. We'll all be meeting 1 more time for the final skit and oral presentation next week though, I hope we have time to exchange contacts then. Will really love to keep in touch with some of them.

I'll really miss 박지영 선생님. She's been a wonderful and patient tutor. As I was saying goodbye to her she told me "Sorry for making fun of you all the time, it's been real fun in class" in Korean and that really mad me sad and sorry. I felt sorry that I've been a tad bit lazy in memorizing my vocab and it's sad that I won't be able to see her in level 2 Korean next year because it's my final year. Sigh.. 박지영 선생님이 사랑해요. 보고 싶어요.

Engineer? hmm..........

내 머리가 나빠서

2009-11-01T14:26:00.006+08:00

내 머리가 나빠서 - SS501

We were on a bus on the way to somewhere. We were sitting side by side having a conversation. In the middle of our conversation you lifted my hand over your shoulders and put it onto your head as if asking me to pat you. I figured it was what you wanted so I continue talking with my hand slowly patting your head. Then you leaned forward without a warning and before I could react, I felt your soft lips touching mine. I didn't pull away because deep inside this was what I've always been wishing for.

For years I've been yearning to be the one beside you, to be the one holding you, to be the one kissing you, to be the one loving you. I've endured many heartaches after heartaches seeing you in relationships with other guys but yet my hurting heart chose not to let go. I've already given up hope of being your "one" and chose to be with you as a friend. "As long as she's happy" was all that's in my mind. Kissing you has never crossed my mind in a long time but it is now happening when I'm least expecting it.

I came to my senses after god knows how long and pulled away with a worried look. I really thought it was some kind of sick joke you decided to play on me and was expecting you to burst out in laughter but you never laughed. You did nothing but look into my eyes and then I realized you weren't joking. You then close your eyes and leaned forward again... I followed your actions and soon our lips touch again.. but this time everything disappeared the moment our lips connected.

I open my eyes only to see the blank white ceiling of my room. It was a sick joke after all...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ok don't think much, those few of you that are reading my blog will probably be thinking too much and start coming up with possible names... Just don't.. I just thought I needed to write this down somewhere and I guess this is what blogs are really for: writing down what's in your mind... So I don't want you guys to get any weird ideas. =)

P.S. Nice one Liverpool, now we're gonna get laughed at by every single BPL club supporters.

승리!!!

2009-10-26T15:24:00.002+08:00

What's with Man United not being able to beat Liverpool lately? It's 3 consecutive loses now and Vidic.. LOL at Vidic... losing to a same team 3 times in a row isn't really bad considering the team is a good one but losing AND getting sent of 3 times in a row is totally shingz man.. (Refer to Ris Low for the definition of Shingz.. and to those who don't know who is Ris Low.. where the hell have you been for the past year? Mars?)

Yeah, it was a satisfying win. Liverpool played well as a team. Even Lucasthenoobshit played a quite okay game. If they played half as well as they did against MU, I doubt they would lost the 4 matches in a row. Let's just hope they keep playing like that and just maybe we will win something this season.

Have been looking around the web for job listings lately... One thing very different about Singapore and Malaysia is that people here apply for jobs like VERY early before they graduate. Most of them barely through the 1st semester of their final year have already applied for jobs which means there's more than half a year gap till graduation. In Malaysia, people normally start applying AFTER they graduate... So here I am now, 2 more months till it's all over but without a job application. Tons of people have asked on companies I've applied.. Embarrassingly, I couldn't reply them cause I haven't really start applying. Will start sending in some applications soon though.. need to polish the CV a bit and find suitable openings...

Anybody hiring a slacker? let me know! =D

꿈

2009-10-23T13:51:00.003+08:00

It's weird that I'm dreaming of you for the past few days now... I can't recall what happens in my dreams but I'm pretty sure you're in it...

2ne1 - I Don't Care

2009-10-20T05:44:00.004+08:00

Wah it's been a bad week... Liverpool losing to an inflated beach ball... Us losing a "sure win" competition to 1 ward.... and most importantly, losing my dear mousepad after the competition...

Im not going to even talk about football.. The way Liverpool has been playing, they deserve the lost with or without the beach ball... Nerds

Ahh.. the competition.. Just 2 weeks ago, our dear Stykish came and ask us to join Autumnflux. According to him it's a SURE WIN competition because the amateur category only allows a team consisting of players which adds up to a certain average point. In addition, the prize money is only SGD200 so technically there won't be any pros in the competition... or so we thought.. Formed a last minute team taking a relatively weak player to play as our last...

So on Sunday morning we went in hopes of winning something.. lol.. we ended up losing the first game. Our "sure win" became a first round out.. I had no regrets on the way I played though, in fact I'm pretty happy on the way I played. Our bottom lane was pretty much a 1 sided lane. The problem really lies in the top lane... our "weak" last apparently did not heed our advice to learn how to ward and failed to block the opponents neutral spawn which eventually led to the downfall of their lane and add on some really stupid item choices and movements by him, we ended up losing a game that we thought we would win.

Now losing the competition because of 1 player wasn't really bad. At least I didn't have that "I played like shit and dragged the team down" feeling like I did during IFG. The worst thing was I left my beloved mousepad over at the lanshop. Freaking dumb lor... It's not some cheap RM5 mousepad lor. It's a Steel Series QcK+ which would easily cost about SGD20-30. I've been using it for 3 years and suddenly it's gone... The feeling of playing without it is just so different... damn not used to it.. sigh..

I think I need some one to control me on my daily activities... I'm slacking so much now that I feel really guilty at times. The thing is, I still refuse to do my work eventhough I know I should. I'm not going to do well this sem eventhough I'm only taking 2 modules. I won't fail (or will I?) but I surely wont be getting anything close to an A. I would be really happy with 2 C's because I'm really not putting any effort in it. A little over a month more till the end of everything.. Hopefully I'll start focusing before it's too late...

btw, <3 Sandara Park from 2ne1.. so cute =p

커피 프린스 1호점

2009-10-10T17:27:00.001+08:00

Ahh, it's a good day to wake up early. Ate KFC breakfast which IMO is much better than McD's breakfasts.

Had a good chat with 2 friends that I haven't been talking to for quite sometime. Ok, it hasn't been very long since the last time I talked to 1 of them but she used to complain to me about everything all the time so 1 week without any complains from her feels like a long time lol. I guess no complains is a good thing for her though, hope everything goes smoothly for her.

The other guy is a friend from the same year as me. Had a short chat and I got to know that travelling to Korea isn't really as expensive as I thought it would be. He spent 10 days in Seoul few months back for less than 1.2K SGD including of air tickets and accommodations which to me is really worth it. Heck I spent nearly RM2k just for a week in Kota Kinabalu. Now I'm really interested in going to Korea but I'm not really a solo backpacker kind of person. So anyone wants to tag along? =)

Oh and I'm currently really stuck on Coffee Prince. It's really a fun drama to watch. It's starts off a bit shaky and lame but as the show progresses, the chemistry between Eun Chan and Han Kyul makes the show really likeable. I can see why the ratings for the show are so high in Korea, how can you not fall in love with a show with cast that has such great chemistry together? Definitely a must watch drama if you're a K-drama lover!

소녀시대 - Into the new world

2009-10-05T04:36:00.003+08:00

The girls performed during the Chuseok idol special few days back. It's nice to see them perform Into the new world again. Unlike most of the SNSD fans who are not from Korea, I actually fell in love with them through Into the new world instead of Gee.

SNSD Taeyeon & Sunny - 사랑인걸요(It's Love)

2009-10-03T15:13:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how many drama's are getting Taeyeon to sing their OST's and it always comes out good. This one is from Heading To The Ground starring "U-Know" Yunho from DBSK. I haven't watch the drama but it seems that it's ratings are very low in Korea.

Nice to see Sunny getting more songs to her name now. People are always talking about Taeyeon, Tiffany or Jessica's voice but in my opinion Sunny has the widest vocal range among all of them.

I got a feeling!

2009-09-26T03:14:00.002+08:00

Woot! Guinness is great!

Arthur's Day is fantastic!

BLACK EYE PEAS ARE AMAZING!

Break! woot!

2009-09-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

We ended our IFG journey last Saturday without even getting a medal. I wasn't really disappointed with the 3rd/4th placing game lost again SoC though. We fielded our 2 weakest players and drafted an unstable draft for the game. For me, though I didn't win anything for IFG but I'm still glad I participated. Through those few games, I've managed to learn a lot about self-confidence and have also met some new friends. I've always hated Zohn cause he was always too cocky but after a few training games we got to know each other better and he's really not such a bad guy (he's still cocky though =.=).

I'm pretty glad that DotA was included as an Inter-Faculty Game. It shows that people are starting to take e-sports as serious sports and not just computer games. Many people look down on e-gaming saying it's a waste of time and money to sit down and play computer games. At the same time, these people are ignoring the fact that there's not much different from computer games with none physical sports like snooker, archery or shooting which are sports played competitively all over the world. In fact, competitive e-games are actually more benificial to a person than the mentioned sports provided players are taking the game seriously and manage their time properly. Split-second decision making, alertness, communication, teamwork and critical thinking are just a few things you can benefit from playing games with the right mindset. I hope in the future, people will start to take e-sports more seriously .

On the same day, we had a bbq gathering at Alison's new place to celebrate Ms. Pang's be-earlied birthday =p . Had a great time, I love gatherings like this where we can forget about everything and laugh our hearts out. The food wasn't fantastic but seeing it was a last minute thing, I guess we did quite well.

Sunday : NUSEG DotA competition. It's probably my last NUS competition as a NUS undergrad. Won 1st place as expected. There weren't really any strong teams playing in NUS right now. The prize money was a big improvement from last year. Each of us got 45 bucks after minusing off the registration fees. After the competition, me, DK, Lak and Madeline went to celebrate at some steamboat/bbq buffet place in Sunset Way (forget what's the name of the place). The beef was imba! I love bbq beef! I guess the happiest thing that happened that day wasn't me winning the money but me spending the money on free flow of beef ( I think I ate too little beef though.. shit damn regret). Really enjoyed chatting with them over dinner. I hope this kind of dinner can happen more often in the future.

Back in Subang for a break now. Kind of a relieved that I came back. The weather here surprisingly is not as humid as it was in Singapore and I have unlimited air-con here! Ok la, I won't make my parents go broke so I'm only turning it on when I'm sleeping. I've been sleeping a lot since I came back though. I think I was really exhausted mentaly and physically from my lifestyle in Singapore. Been having trouble moving away from my bed once I lie down. Gotta start studying though, Korean quiz right after the break ends and Macro mid-terms coming soon too.

Happy holidays to everyone in NUS =)

-x4ndeR-

Emoness...

2009-09-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. Engin lost to Science in semis for DotA...

We were undoubtly the favourites to win gold. Stormed through the group stages with 4 impressive wins out of 4 games. Sadly it all ended because of some major decisions that I made.

Few factors why we lost (warning! everything will be stated in DotA terms):

1) Drafting, I underestimate the strength of AP and gave it to opponents without thinking. I drafted a draft which was not really a bad draft, but frankly speaking it didn't fit to our team's play-style. I knew very well that we did not have an established Rhasta player but still went on to pick it without picking another stable carry along with my QOP.

2) Item builds. The draft definitely brought our chances of winning down but what I believe to be the most important factor was my item build. Going hex and orchid for that game was utterly stupid. The problem is, I knew I shouldn't be getting those items before I got them because of the lack of dps in our team but still went on to get them because my teammates insisted on it. If I were to listened to my heart and went for pure damage instead, the game would have been won.

3) Lack of commanding. This team has pretty stubborn players. Without proper commanding, they'll just insist on forcing their way into the opponents base. With opponents having a pugna and AP, force pushing should never be an option. It was common sense that we will lose once we stick and force and once again I knew it but didn't command the team to back up and wait for an opportunity.

4) Hero assignments. This was not my fault.. I already insisted on Zohn playing the bane but instead, Guolong who can't micro more than 1 unit took it. By not being able to micro, it means that he won't be getting a book 3. 1 book 3 will give us an enourmous advantage by being able to use it to kill pugna's nether ward before an engage. The true sight given by the blue guy would have also enable us to deward and counter potm's ulti. (Again, this brings me back to my item build. I could also have gotten a book 3 but decided not too because of comments from my teammates.)

All in all, the lost really comes down to my decisions. I made decisions based on comments and actions by my teammates knowing very well that those decisions will be detrimental to our chances of winning. If only I had more self-confidence on my decisions and played the game based on my instincts, we definitely would have won.

It's really depressing that I failed to realize this sooner. So this is the feeling of scoring an own goal + giving a penalty + getting red-carded all in 1 game... =(

3rd/4th placing against SoC this Saturday. Come watch if free! The finals between Biz and Sci would be an interesting one though. In my opinion Science would probably win it but if Biz manages to pull another surprise strategy (they did omni+od in group stages against Science), they may be able to win it.

Because I'm Stupid - SS501

2009-09-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

내 머리는 너무나 나빠서
너 하나밖에 난 모르고
다른 사람을 보고있는 넌
이런 내마음도 모르겠지

너의 하루에 나란 없겠지
또 추억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 난
자꾸 눈물이 흐르고있어

너의 뒷모습을 보는것도 난 행복이야
아직 나의 마음을 몰라도
끝내 스치듯이 가도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔
너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

너의 하루에 난 없겠지
또 기억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 나
혼자 추억을 만들고 있어

내겐 사랑이란 아름다운 상처같아
너의 예쁜 미소를 보아도
함께 난 웃지도 못해

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔
가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Bye bye never say good bye
이렇게 잡지 못하지만
I need you 아무 말도 못해 I want you 바래도 다시 바래도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔
너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔
가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Lucky - Ashilyn (Boys Before Flowers OST)

2009-09-02T05:17:00.002+08:00

Uni stuffs are finally pilling up. I got my Korean! That means an additional 6 hours of class per week. I initially wanted to look for something to do for part-time but looking at my weird time table now, it's kind of hard to find a job that's willing to give me my timeslots.

Attended my Korean tutorial today and I really enjoyed it. Classmates and tutor were great. Looking forward to next weeks tutorial!

Days have been filled with lots of Dota lately. I'm finally getting some draft matches because of Inter Faculty Games training. Yes, there's Dota for IFG and I'm playing for Team Engin =D .

I hate my teammates though.. Really stubborn people that refuses to think out of the box. Been having a hard time trying to get the "act-base-on-situation" thinking into their heads. To them, when something works well in 1 situation, they assume its gonna do well every single time. Dota is a game filled with so many unknown variables that every game is different but somehow they fail to see this simple fact. Lame..

oh well, I should fix this habit of sleeping in the wee hours of the morning after IFG is over. Gotta wake up earlier to take something from my friend some more.. sigh... Good Night

안녕!

It's a cruel world....

2009-08-17T03:18:00.002+08:00

Went to Kbox to celebrate Yin Chau's birthday and the singing session couldn't have came at a better time. Of course It's a pleasure to celebrate Chau's birthday with the gang but lately I haven't been at my best moods. It's been awhile since I've had the chance to sing my lungs out and 5 hours of singing was really a relieve to my stressed out feelings. Many thanks to everyone for shoving the mike to me eventhough I probably hurt your ears.. =p

Back to emo stuff... my appeals for my modules still hasn't been confirmed yet.. I bunked into Forensics lecture last Friday night and really enjoyed the lecture. For the first time in my whole NUS history, I felt like attending every single lecture of a module. I'm just praying that my appeal goes through.. sigh..

And you,

Don't mean to be cruel,

You never even knew about the heartache,

I've been going through.

Well I try and try to forget you girl,

But it's just so hard to do,

Every time you do that thing you do

Jessica & Onew - 1년 後(One Year Later)

2009-08-14T01:55:00.003+08:00

A lot has been on my mind lately but everytime I try to type it out, nothing appears. I find it hard to put my feelings and thoughts into words nowadays.

My appeals are not looking good.. I've already been rejected by 2 different parties and now it all comes down to Engineering Faculty's undergrad admins decisions. It's kinda frustrating not knowing what modules I will be studying next week when it's already the end of week 1. Hope everything gets settled soon.

UFO has ended and I must say the freshies this year are amazingly crazy. I didn't join them much but it was easy to see how "on" these year's freshmen were compared to those of 2 years back. Kudos to this year's organizing committee and the seniors involve.

Last week's annual National Day steamboat/bbq gathering was fantastic. Good food coupled with great company just made it a perfect night. It's been quite some time since a MSL event had such a happy atmosphere.

I've been learning Korean by myself for quite a bit via a website lately. Kind of got the hang of the simple vowels and consonants so I'm actually able to read out quite a number of words but I don't know what they mean unless it's in my limited Korean vocab that was build while watching shows/listening to music =p

I've been a bit moody lately.. Simple comments can make my temper explode.. I'm not sure what's the reason for the mood swings but I'm sorry for it. Will try to control my temper as much as possible....

Through experience, I've learned to not put too much hope into anything because the more hope you have the more it hurts when it shatters....

혼자

2009-08-06T13:54:00.002+08:00

Aih.. I got outbidded for my Korean class and to make things worst I did not bid for anything else. So I'm stuck here now without any confirm modules yet. I'm really not happy with the bidding system now. =(

I sent an appeal for my modules. Let's just hope the fact that I'm a final sem student will get me my modules. In the mean time, I still have to hunt for emergency modules just in case my appeals fails.

I saw something on the way back from the mrt station to my house yesterday that made me feel 고독한. Sometimes I wonder what have I done wrong for the past few years to be exiled.

Really not in the mood to stay at home alone now... but I have no where to go.. no one to turn too... should have went back to Malaysia... I miss the weekly movie/futsal/tar kei sessions.. I miss the food.. I miss my friends... I miss my family.. Fucking hate this place

보고싶다고 불러봐도 넌 아무 대답없잖아 헛된 기대 걸어봐도 이젠 소용없잖아

2009-08-04T11:45:00.002+08:00

Ahh, i guess once you stop blogging it'll be very hard to start doing it consistently again.

It's bidding period now.. frankly speaking, I think the bidding system in NUS is pure bullshit. I don't see the logic in allocating less general account points to engineering students compared to other faculties. It's already my 5th year and final sem in NUS but I still have trouble bidding for modules I want. Lame shit.

If people are asking for a reason to NOT come to NUS? The bidding system is already a good enough reason.

H1N1

2009-07-14T19:46:00.002+08:00

UFO is on! Freshies are coming in! Fresh faces! New people to meet!

The only problem is.. I'm down with swine flu aka H1N1 aka selsema babi aka Influenza A. YES! THATS RIGHT! OF ALL THE TIMES TO GET INFECTED! UFO PERIOD! HAHAHAHA!

So I'm currently stuck at home right now, not being able to do anything apart from using my PC and PSP.

Fortunately the symptoms started somewhere around last Thursday or Friday so that means I can go for the Sentosa trip! Just hope it's not too late to mingle in with the freshies. =(

Now I wonder who else is gonna get infected because of me? =DDD

2009-07-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

We used to be so close... Since when did everything became so awkward?

Sigh....

2009-06-29T05:49:00.002+08:00

Time really flies.. It seems like my 2 months of holidays just flew by without at the speed of light. The holidays were wasted away.. nothing productive done mostly due to my screwed up planning. Initially I planned to take special sem and work part-time but I ended up not doing anything except watching shows and sleeping.

I'll be going back to Singapore soon... haven't buy my ticket back but it'll most likely be on the first. Don't wanna go back..... I love my home here..... =(

Watched Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen yesterday. Frankly, the movie sucks. Totally over-rated by everyone. They practically focused so much on the action that the whole story just sucks. There's just too many holes in the storyline that bring downs the quality of the movie. Sure the action scenes were good but as a fan of the original transformers cartoon, I expect the machines to look more like the ones in the cartoon. ALL the decepticons practically look the same and that really spoils the movie. I rate the movie at an average 6/10.. and that's only because Megan Fox is totally owning in the movie. If it wasn't because of her, I would say it's not worth my 10 bucks at all.

Girls' Generation - Tell Me Your Wish (Genie)

2009-06-23T04:24:00.014+08:00

Went to the dentist last Saturday and he told me that the it would be better to keep the wisdom tooth!! YAY!! NO NEED EXTRACT!! Damn relieved.. phew

I think I have this big dentist phobia. I was freaking terrified when I was waiting for my turn at the dental clinic. Was shaking the whole time. Heck, I even get scared when "dentist" comes out from my parents mouth. Don't ask me why I'm so afraid of them, I don't know.

A lot of "things" ended last week. By "things" I mean manga/anime/drama that I have been watching/reading. Eyeshield 21 (manga) finally ended after 333 episodes. The ending was a bit dissappointing. I was really hoping of a more explosive ending that would match up to the whole 332 great episodes but the it kind of left me with unsatisfied.

Yoona's Cinderella Man (Korean drama) also ended not long ago and I finished watching it last week. Only 16 episodes but it's a great show. The ending could have been better and it probably could have been delayed into a few more episodes but the beauty of short dramas is that they make you long for more after it ends. I've gotten tired of long running Hong Kong dramas because they drag the story unnecessarily. Overall, the show is pretty good. Good Actors, good story and good soundtrack.

9 End 2 Outs is another 16 episode Korean drama that I finished last week. I had to find something else to watch while waiting for Cinderella Man to be subbed so I chose 9 End 2 Outs because Yoona is in it too as a supporting actress. Chose the show because of the girl but I ended up watching for the story. One of the best dramas I've watched so far because of the meaningful story. The show touches on many questions related to love. Love over ambitions/dreams, age gap, different social status and friendship over love are the few topics touched in the show.

Recently, I've been quite hooked with anime with psychology themes. One Outs and Akagi are 2 animes that I finished last week too. One outs is about a baseball pitcher who outwits his opponents using his exceptionally calm and sharp mind while Akagi is about a genius mahjong player who is gifted with sharp gambling senses. Both animes makes you think and at times you would want to pause the show just to try and figure out about what is going through the heads of the lead characters. Not many will appreciate the complicated psychological battles in the 2 animes but they're definitely worth watching if you're interested in gambling or psychology.

Holidays ending soon.. will most probably go back to Singapore by July... UFO then final sem! Or at least if I don't fail. Pray that I don't fail anymore!

P.S : Congrats to Girls' Generation for climbing to No. 1 on online music sites with their new single "Tell Me Your Wish (Genie)" on the day of release!!

Wisdom?

2009-06-18T06:39:00.002+08:00

No wonder I'm feeling dumb nowadays, all ny wisdom has been changing into the form of a tooth =.=

GG lar, have to get that "smart" tooth extracted cause it's making it uncomfortable for me when I eat.. and I LOVE to eat =.=

Damn scared of the pain during extraction.. damn scared of the pain after extraction.. damn scared of the blood flowing out... but i think the thing I'll be most scared of is..... CAN NOT EAT PROPERLY FOR A PERIOD OF TIME AFTER EXTRACTION!! @#$@#%@%!

Wii~~

2009-06-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

Went out for lunch with Alvin and Kev today in McDs at SS2. We had 1 hour to kill after lunch before our futsal session so we decided to go to Alvin's house in Aman Suria to chill a bit and we ended up playing Wii!

It's my first time touching a Wii and I have to say the concept of moving while playing console games is really a good one. Not only do you get to enjoy yourself, but you'll also get to do some minor hand exercises instead of just sitting down like a couch potato. The hand movements for some games are no joke wei, playing those games where it requires you to turn/shake/swing your hands as fast as possible are very very tiring to the hands. This tiring factor makes the console perfect for game addicts because no matter how addicted you are, you wont b e able to play it for long periods of time because your hands simply can continue!

After having a go at the Wii, I felt that buying a Wii is definitely much better then buying a PS3. Not only because of the healthy entertainment but it's also because the Wii is much cheaper. Too add on, Wii games can be downloaded for free online into an external hard-disk which can be connected to your Wii console. Compare that to forking out money for new original games for your PS3 and it's easy to see which console gives the better value for money!

Fading.....

2009-06-05T07:10:00.003+08:00

Haven't been Dota-ing for quite some time now.. Surprisingly, I'm not itching all over to play anymore even after a few weeks of not playing. Some how the urge to farm, hunt and take down towers is no longer in me.

This fading feeling for something I was addicted to pretty badly for the past few years really came as a surprise for me. I always thought I would eventually stop playing because of new games taking over but that's not the case now. The passion for the game just suddenly faded....

I don't know the exact reason but it's probably the lousy quality of pub games that I've been playing for a period of time. Since I've stopped drafting, Dota hasn't really been the same. The adrenaline is just not there in public games especially when the game is too one-sided. Nowadays, it's either the win comes too easily or the other way round. It's been a long time since I experienced a well-balanced game where both sides have the opportunity to win till the last minute and it's games like those that keeps you wanting more.

Ahh.. how I miss those games....

King dethroned? Federer for Glory?

2009-06-03T03:46:00.004+08:00

Rafael Nadal is currently the world's number 1 tennis player, the King of Clay, the player that has never lost any of his 31 consecutive matches in French Open, the player that was aiming to be the first man to win 5 consecutive French Open title, has lost in the fourth round of this year's French Open. Robin Soderling played arguably the best game of his life to cause one of the biggest upsets in Grand Slam history by beating tournament favourite, Nadal 6-2 6-7(2) 6-4 7-6(2).

I didn't manage to watch the match but it is reported that Soderling played so well that Nadal was struggling to keep up with him.

It was really an unexpected result as this is the first time Soderling has managed to reach the fourth round of a Grand Slam. I was really anticipating another Federer vs Nadal finals but looks like that's not gonna happen.

With Nadal out, Federer is on course to finally win the French Open, the only Grand Slam that he hasn't won yet. Then again, another upset may happen again. Clay is after all not Federer's favourite surface and if the King of Clay can lose, who's to say that Federer won't? Needless to say, the remaining games of the tournament are gonna be interesting.

1 more sem...

2009-06-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

Aih life sucks when you get results like mine. Results came out few days back and mine wasn't good. Then again I kind of expected I would fail at least 1 module so yeah, the expected happened! I failed a GEM that I took without thinking. Colors and Vision, I suggest those that are planning to take it to STUDY FOR IT OR RISK FAILING!

Because of this fail and the other one 2 sems back, I have to do 2 more modules before I can graduate. At first I thought of doing the 2 modules in the special sem period which is only 6 weeks but looking at the list of offered modules and considering the limited time, I opted to extend 1 more sem. Since I'm taking the whole sem, I thought I might as well take an extra module for fun.

So now I am gonna take 3 breadths next sem. I'm seriously considering Korean because I'm not giving up on the thought that I may 1 day meet Yoona =) but that's still under consideration. I may opt for other modules if there are more interesting ones up for the taking.

Oh well, 2 months to think of what to take =)

2009-05-30T04:28:00.005+08:00

Results came out yesterday.. Not really happy about it but I can say it wasn't surprising to me... Shall talk about it another time.

On to happy things! It's 30th May today!! Happy Birthday Im Yoon Ah (임윤아)!!

Yoona's my favourite member from the 9 girl Korean group Girl's Generation.

Basic Profile;
Stage Name: YoonA (윤아)
Birth Name: Im Yoon Ah (임윤아)
Nick names : Deer Yoona, Him Yoona (Strength Yoona), Goddess Yoong, Yoong
Motto : Be confident in everything
Group Position : Supporting Vocalist
Languages : Korean (Fluent) , English, Chinese (Basic) , Japanese (Basic)
DOB: May 30, 1990
Height: 166cm (168cm or so she states herself)
Weight: 47kg
Blood Type: B
School: Daeyoung High School
Casted: 2002 SM Saturday Open Casting Audition
Experience:
-2004 TVXQ's Magic Castle MV
-2006 Sanyo Eneloop CF
-2006 Teun Teun English 'Follow Me' CF
-2006 TVXQ First Concert guest appearance
-2006 Super Junior's U MV
-2006 TZSX's ¾óÁ¤ (My Everything) MV
-2007 Elite CF with SS501
-2007 Sunkist Lemonade CF w/ Super Junior's Kangin, Heechul Version 2
-2007 Clean and Clear CF
-2007 MBC drama - 9 Hits, 2 Outs
-2007 Super Junior's Marry U mv
-2008 Lee Seung Chul's 'Propose' MV
-2008 Sola VitaminC CF
-2008 YeJiMiIn wise beauty CF
-2008 Clean and Clear CF
-2008 MBC - Park Jung Geum
-2008 KBS drama - You are my Destiny
-2008 Korea Drama Festival - Best New Actress Award
-2008 Korea Drama Festival - Netizens popularity award
-2009 Baeksang Awards - Best New Actress Award
-2009 Baeksang Awards - Heiwon Popularity Award
-2009 24/7's Thats guy's girl MV
-2009 MBC Drama - Cinderella Man
-2009 Clean and Clear CF with Kim So Eun

-Cindy the Perky, eCole, Dasoo magazines
Fancafe: http://cafe.daum.net/imyoona [Luxury Brand]
Duration of Training: 7 years and 2 months

I recommend drama lovers to check out Cinderella Man, it's currently still filming and it's airing weekly in Korea. Videos with subs are available in Soshified.com. Started watching it because of Yoona but I find the storyline to be quite interesting. You Are My Destiny is pretty good too but some may find it a bit too long and draggy (it's 187 episodes long).

*Credit's to soshified.com for Yoona's profile

World's Best?

2009-05-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

The Barclays Premier League (BPL) or better known to many as the English Premier League (EPL) ended just a few days back with Manchester United (MU) already winning the title 1 week back. MU were good this season but never look like they were playing great football. The league title was probably saved by those 2 lucky winning strikes by Macheda. Nevertheless, consistently grinding out wins in tough situations are still positive points to take note of but it should never happen to a team where many claimed to be the world's best.

It has never came across in my mind even once that MU this season were playing the best football. If anything, they were playing terrible at times. The sight of Barcelona celebrating and MU in despair signaled the end of 2009 Champion's League Final which was a match that proved to many that MU were far of the standard of being called world's best.

They were outplayed by Barcelona in every department. The midfield lacks any physical presence at all and that allowed Xavi and Iniesta, arguably 2 of the best passers in the game, to have time and space to move the ball around. Vidic once again, failed to proof himself in a big game and let Eto'o easily cut inside him to toe poke pass Van Der Sar who surely should have done better at his near post.

Before the game, there was a lot of hype on who was the better player between Messi and Ronaldo and the result was pretty obvious. For someone so small and young, little Messi just had more determination and strength to keep the ball than Ronaldo. You lay a finger on Ronaldo and he falls tumbling over while crying like somebody stabbed him but it takes 2 or 3 players to kick and push Messi before he falls to the ground. Another fault of Ronaldo was also his selfishness. Many times he could pass but he didn't. It was as if he tried to play the game alone to prove to people he was better than Messi. He grew desperate in trying to win by himself while Messi ignored the competition and played with his team. With all due respect, Ronaldo is a great player with a lot of skills but he will never be the best.

From the looks of things, I don't think MU's squad are strong enough to win the BPL and CL next year. If they sell Ronaldo and get a few other players than maybe, but at their current strength, I believe many teams can get a win against them if they go ahead and attack them.

Oh well, till next season!

By the Way, I'm a Liverpool fan. =)

American Idol Season 8

2009-05-24T05:04:00.003+08:00

The first (and the last) episode of American Idol Season 8 that I've watch was coincidentally the finals for the season. Kinda regretted watching it because once again, I'm left dissappointed with the winner.

I've never watch Kris Allen nor Adam Lambert perform in the past episodes but watching the finals was enough to give me an idea on who was the better singer. It was pretty obvious that Kris did not have the power nor the diversity that Adam had at his disposal. To me Kris loses the dual hands down but surprisingly, he won. Not only did he win, but it was reported that he won with a very big margin which certainly does not reflect his abilities. The dissappointment was exactly the same when Clay Aiken lost out to Ruben Studdard in season 2. So why did Kris win? I really don't know, but after reading a lot of blogs about how cute and hot he is? =.=

Then again, winners of American Idol don't always make it big. Ruben Studdard? Fantasia Barrino? Can't think of any of their songs that made it big. It's funny how Chris Daughtry who was at 4th place behind Hicks, is doing much better than some of the winners.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying America doesn't know how to pick the write winner. Look at Kelly Clarkson and Carrie Underwood. Amazing singers who deservely won their respective seasons. Kelly Clarkson has 18 awards (4 AMA , 12 BMA, 2 GA)* while Carrie Underwood has 23 awards ( 5 AM, 14 BMA, 4 GA)*. David Cook, last season's winner is pretty quiet now but I have a hunch that after a year or so he'll probably start appearing in your radios again.

In the past 8 seasons, the competition has produced both deserving and underserving winners. Sad to say, the "cute and hot" Kris Allen falls into the later category. I'm banking on Adam Lambert to be a more successfull artist.

*AMA = American Music Awards, BMA = Billboard Music Awards, GA = Grammy Awards.

Bottomless pit??

2009-05-21T19:12:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I think there's something wrong with me. For some unknown reason, I can't seem to keep myself full for long periods of time. The only time that I have felt really full was few days back when I went to Shangri-La Hotel for a buffet. Other than that, I don't think I can find another day where I have not spent my time awake in the house scavenging for food. It's like after a meal, I get hungry after only an hour or so.

The big problem is, at the rate I'm going.. I'm gonna turn obese in the near future... But what can I do when the only thing that'll keep me full is unlimited lamb, beef and oysters (referring to buffet) !?!? I can't possibly starve myself when I'm feeling hungry can't I?

I guess the only way to not grow fat is to exercise... If anybody is reading this and is planning to play soccer/futsal, please do call me along. =)

Revival?

2009-05-19T03:52:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh.... it's nearly been so long since I've blogged...

Figured I should start writing again to keep my English from going rusty. GameWorksSg has finally gone through it's alpha launch few days back and I'm doing proofreading for the articles that will appear in the website. Dedicated gamers who are interested in competitive or non-competitive gaming news should frequent the website often for up to date news about both the local in international gaming scene.

So what am I doing now? It's currently holidays for me. I'm supposed to be a University graduate by now but due to unforeseen circumstances, I'm currently having trouble to graduate. I failed 2 modules last year and I am currently in danger of failing another 2, or maybe 3. If that happens, I've gotta extend my studies for another semester that is IF my Cumulative Average Points(CAP) doesn't reach the point where NUS decides to kick me out. If I somehow manage to past all my modules for this semester, I'll be able to complete my course in the next 2 months by doing special term. I'm really hoping for a miracle to happen and I don't fail. I tried really hard this sem and it really sucks if I fail again.

Results will be out on the 29th... I'm not hoping for A's... just give me my passes.......

The beginning of the end...

2008-08-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

The 1st day of my Final year in uni has just ended. Classes this sem are kinda spread out.... I have classes everyday but only 2 hours of class for 3 days. I guess that's good for my FYP. My Monday is kind of crappy. 9-11 and then break all the way to 4. If I was still staying in PGP this wouldn't be a big problem. Now I'm staying off campus and I don't own a laptop so I don't really have anywhere to go. Hopefully can keep myself busy during that period. =(

Met with my supervisor last Saturday. Seemed like a nice young Indian. My topic for FYP is Mechanical Properties of Dentine so my lab and experiments will be mostly based in the dentistry department. Supposed to meet my supervisor again today but he hasn't replied my email on when to meet. Hopefully everything goes well and I'm able to get an idea on how busy I will be for this sem.

Exams are scarce for this semester. Only 3 final papers and no mid-terms. But I have quite a lot of essays to do so that may be a problem. Then again, I like essays more than final exams.

Film and History is a great module. The lecturers are very good speakers and they've manage to keep me awake through out the whole lecture. In addition, movies will be screen every week. Yes, EVERY WEEK! So I'll be watching a total of 12 movies through out the sem. Most of the movies are old ones and some we haven't even heard of but I believe each of the movie will be interesting to watch. Watched Memento today. A great show in my opinion. Really keeps you thinking and the way the show is filmed is great. The story is mainly about this guy who suffer's from short term memory lost after an accident. He can remember everything before the accident but anything after just fades away after awhile. The way they show the film is divided to 2 parts. 1 is from the future and 1 the past and the future will keep reversing while the past will keep going forward until in the end both stories joint up to reveal the REAL story behind. Confusing yes, you have to watch it to really understand. Directed by Christopher Nolan, the great director that brought us Dark knight. I highly recommend Memento to anybody that likes movies that make you think.

2008-08-02T12:39:00.000+08:00

Choosing modules is not fun at all....

I need 1 more GEM and 3 more breadth/UE for the whole next year... Means I need to choose 4 modules that totally no relation to my Major... I totally have no idea on what to take.

On the bright side, I'm still left with 3 S/U so I can S/U 3 out of that 4 modules...

So any suggestions on what to take? =D

Quote: The heart can't think, so why follow your heart?

2008-07-31T17:52:00.000+08:00

Veoh's not working in Malaysia anymore... It seems it stopped like 2 months ago but I only just found out because I was back in Singapore back then.... Now I can't watch the animes I want anymore!!!

The computer here back him is..... terribly lagging.... it definitely needs to be reformatted but I just don't have the required CD's and programs... So I'm gonna leave it as it is for now. The thing is, I wouldn't dare play a Dota game on this thing.. I'm afraid it'll just crash the moment the game starts... So there goes my nightly Dota games.

Manga's are coming out really slowly... and the slow connection here really does not encourage the starting of new manga's... The pages just takes too long to load.. So no manga during weekdays.

I can't seem to find a common topic to chat with people anymore... I find it hard to concentrate on a conversation because my mind will just wander off thinking of my problems.... I've tried to talk to some.. but I just can't seem to get the conversation to flow smoothly...

With totally nothing to do at all... I start thinking a lot... and it's not good when I start to think too much... Many things are clouding my mind and heart right now... relationships, studies, modules, FYP, finance along with a lot more other problems (mostly problems of friends.. but I do worry for them too...).

I can't help but feel emo during the nights.... sure, I can always go to bed early... but going to bed early only means I'll be thinking in the cold, dark and lonely room.. which I doubt will be any better than thinking at the computer.

Post-UFO

2008-07-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

ahh.. barely had the time to online in the past 2 weeks. Had been so busy with UFO preparations and UFO itself. Stayed over at PGP for UFO nights. UFO was great, just like last year, the freshies were initially pretty "off" and it took quite a lot of effort from the seniors to actually light the fire (though there are some that are permanently "off").

I did not do much for this UFO though... I led my OG like a zombie leading.. My group Sei Ngan Zai was one of the quietest group and I can say it is all down to my fault. As a senior, I know I should have put all my troubles to 1 side and concentrate on keeping my group "on" but sadly.. I let them down.

Talking bout my OG, they may not be the noisiest and most "on" people.. but for some reason, we bonded quite well through-out the few days of UFO. I was really touched by their thank you messages that they gave me at the end of the BBQ. What really touched me was that they are thanking me despite me not fulfilling my duty as an OGL.

To Lee Yu, Kheng Siang, Wei Kean, Wen Qing, Carolyn, Jing Yi and Stephanie(though you joined us only after Sentosa), I would like to say I'm sorry for not being a good OGL and I truly thank you all for being such a great group.

I'm quite lazy to summarize the day-to-day happenings for UFO but pictures can be found in my facebook. Wen Qing has took a lot of pictures and tagged a lot of us on the way. All I can say is, taking away the fact that I was a bit under the weather I had a great time. Sad thing is... the number of freshie's msn I have is miserable.. lol

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On to another topic... I've been thinking a lot lately on a very strong four letter word which starts with a capital L.

I've always had a weak heart.. I tend to fall for people easily. Sometimes, its even possible for me to like 2 person at 1 time. Now that I think about it, I'm not even sure whether I'm actually falling for that person or am I just wanting to be close friends.

So now I'm really confused... What is Love? If my heart starts beating faster when I talk to you, does that mean I Love you? If I get upset if I see another guy getting close to you, does that mean I Love you? If I'm willing to spend hours of time just to catch a glimpse of you, does that mean I Love you?

When do I know that she's really the one? When do I know whether she's not worth my time or when I should give everything I got and not give up? A friend of mine said that... there's nothing wrong if you fall for people easily, but what if I'm going for some one and suddenly I fall for another person? or worst, when I'm already attached and I fall for somebody else? Wouldn't that be unfair to them? It makes me wonder... should I go after a girl if i start to have some feelings for her? or should I wait till I'm really sure? but if I wait, what if I wait too long and she's gone?

So many questions that has no definite answers to it....... I know... I think too much... but I can't help it... I envy people that just go for it without thinking.. some come out successfull, some end up regretfull.... but at least, they tried....

There's really a lot in my mind now... but I find it hard to actually type it out.... I just hope when I get back to Malaysia, everything will just fly by and I can start my busiest semester in NUS on a good note...

2008-07-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

ahh.. its been a long time.... just too lazy to update.....

My last post was about having trouble finding a place to stay, guess what? I managed to found a pretty nice place. It's at Clementi, 2200 per month. House is not very old and its pretty cosy. Engin is only 3 stops away. There's food, karaoke, mcd, kfc, pizza hut, banks, buses, mrt, and grocery stores. What more can you ask for? Great location lor. The only problem is.. the kitchen is filled with roaches. Been killing damn lot of them but they just come back every night.

Another thing I'm afraid of is sharing a room (currently sleeping in 1 room cause the rest of my housemates are not back yet). No, I'm not afraid my room mate will disturb me. More of the other way round. Everybody knows I always sleep very late, the doors are a bit squeaky so I'm scared that I'll wake him when I go to bed. I'm also scared that I snore... =(

Oh well, hope everything goes well.

The past 2 days have been filled with sports and dinner meetings. Swam at John's place yesterday. Unlike the first time that we swam there, this time I really did swim (of course the amount of swimming done is no where near last time when I was swimming regularly). Hands are damn tired, could barely lift up my hands when I was bathing. It's still aching now when I apply pressure.

Today played football, don't know why but was damn tiring. Legs are currently feeling like jelly.

Whole body aching, never thought pain would actually make me feel good =D.